I am not supposed wake up this early.

This is stupid that I vomited early in the morning.

I am sick during the Christmas again. 

Why must it fall on the Christmas!

I shall rest now!

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Christmas

I wish everybody a MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Christmas day is a time for love.

It is a time for showing our affection to our loved ones.

Hey, Santa Claus,

I want.. *thinking*

Okay, simple one will do. 

I want to be healthy, wealthy and happy.

That's all.

Thank you.

=D

Rocks the night babehh.

Have a blessed Christmas and a happy new year.

Today's Google is cute :

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冬至快乐

平凡的日子平常过。

幸好有节，平淡的日子才能激起丝丝的喜悦。

“ 冬至不仅是一门节气，更像是一门哲学。

它不仅涉及到人与自然的关系，还涉及到家人与人的关系。”

冬至，

是北半球全年中白天最短，黑夜最长的一天。

过了冬至，白天会一天天变长，黑夜会慢慢变短。。

就是喜欢与家人坐在一块，拙着汤圆。

想尽办法捏出独一无二的汤圆。

祝：冬至快乐。

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It's Different

Sem 3 has ended!
It's the 4th day of holiday and yet I am still don't get use to it.
Woke up at 7.30am everyday and then zzZ back.

December is an awesome month.
It's a holiday month.
It's a birthday month. xD

My lovely classmates celebrated my birthday on the last day of final exam.
I was like... "Oh my god!" when the lights turned off and I saw the cake...

The cake.. was made by Jun Yuan. Yes, I repeat, its made by him!

Not with this 'ki hiao' look = ="

I was so surprised and touched.
Till today I still can't express the feeling.
It's my first time celebrating birthday in class. This is so different.
What even weird is, I tears when I was reading the birthday card.
Thanks a lot. I really appreciate it.
The cake taste really nice. Chocolate flavor somemore! =)

Good Memories to be remembered.

* It's been a long time since I watched movie in cinema! =/

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要学会满足和珍惜

I bet everyone heard about Alviss Kong, the guy who committed suicide for his relationship.

On that day itself, before the news was shown in newspaper, I had already received the news. I thought it was just a joke or what. But..

He was a good looking guy i must say. 

It was a very sad tragedy. He leave the world just like that. 

Nothing much I can say about it as he already gone. Just wanted to tell everyone out there that, there are a lot of people concerned about you, so if you feel like it's the end of the world, find someone and talk.

I'm sure that there must be a way to solve it.

If you think you are the most unlucky one, see this.

Lets say, you jumped off.

At 10th Floor, you saw a couple are arguing.
看到10楼恩爱的夫妇正在互殴

At 9th Floor, the tough guy - Peter is crying.
看到9楼坚强的PETER正在偷偷的哭泣

8th Floor, the girl found out that her husband has scandal with her best friend.
8楼的丫妹发现未婚夫跟好朋友上床

7th Floor, DanDan is having her medicine.
7楼的丹丹在吃抗忧郁症药丸

6th Floor, the guy is still looking for a job.
6楼失业的阿信还是每天看报纸找工作

5th Floor, the teacher - Mr Wang who are respected by everyone is wearing his wife's bra.
5楼受人敬重的王老师正在偷穿老婆的内衣

4th Floor, Rose want to break up with her boyfriend again.
4楼的ROSE又和男友闹分手

3rd Floor, the lonely uncle is waiting for someone to pay him a visit.
3楼的丫伯每天都盼望有人来探访

2nd Floor, Lily is looking at the photo of her husband who has been disappeared.
2楼的LILY还在看她那结婚半年就失踪的老公照 片

You thought you are the most unlucky person in the world.
在我跳下之前我以为我是世界上最倒霉 的人

The truth is, everyone face their own difficulties too.
现在我才知道每个人都有不为人知 的困境

After looking at them, you started to feel that, you have a good life.
我看完他们之后深深觉得其实自己过 得还不错

Now, people who you saw just now, are now looking at you.

我想他们看了我以后,也会觉得其实自己过得还不错

Learn to appreciate. When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

在觉得自己不幸的同时, 别人比自己更不幸，要学会满足和珍惜。

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11-12-2010

“永远不知道 真正的幸福是什么时候降临，
人们往往在流逝之中看见瞬间，
而那一刻时最真实的。”

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Ijimae

I am falling for this show.

Iljimae.

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伤心

今天的我，真的很伤心。
仿佛一刀一刀地涌入我心里。

为什么是你?
为你找了千万个理由，
很努力的说服自己：不可能是你。
我很相信你，我对你，是很单纯的真诚。

别人如何说你，我都不听。
我都不理。
因为我觉得你不是这样的人。

不是你的错，我没怪你；
我只怪我自己，
看得太简单，
把事情看得太单纯，
把世界看得太美好。

没关系，
你，依然是我的朋友。
我把心事写在沙滩上了，
风，会把它给吹走。

我眼睛很累了。
我的心，更累。

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Off.

Blog is temporarily CLOSED lor!

Hunting Season? Nope, Exam Season!

See you guys in two weeks time.

大小姐的部落格暂时打烊咯！

两个礼拜后见！

Author says,

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感言

雨一滴一滴地打再车镜上 ；
一个人驾驶 ;
听着收音机播的歌曲 ；
陈小春的没那种命 ，
歌词仿佛一句一句的打在我心上。
嘴角好像咸咸的。

路是我走的，我害怕什么?
心有多宽，世界就有多大。
我微笑地，宽容地，用心去面对 ；
为什么我思考的范围世界还是那么小 ?

有些人是不是永远都取代不了?
有些事是不是永远都遗忘不了?
有些痛是不是永远都隐藏不了?

我很想假装看不到，听不到，说不到。
但其实伪装比任何来得困难。
笑着哭，哭着笑 ；
好可悲。

“ 让微笑代替心痛，才不怕宿命的捉弄。” - 张学友 <人在雨中>

其实我不喜欢这样的我。

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Screams!

Argh!

Too many to be done, but too little time.

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Just A Dream

I've been falling to them recently.
Just so hawt!!
Great song with great lyrics sing with great vocal by great looking people.
Thanks to one who introduce them to me. Heh.

Just A Dream - Jason Chen + Joseph Vincent

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

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一点一滴的雨

细细雨滴，滴答滴答。。
大雨倾泻，沙啦沙啦。。
这几天的雨可真多。
老天啊，你好久没露出笑脸了。

偶而，我蛮喜欢下雨的感觉。
曾经说过：下雨代表我的心情。
听着雨滴淋淋，心情变得平静很多。
有时，该给心情放个假。

看着灰色朦胧的天空，
一点一滴的雨就像体味着生活；
仿佛停着了生活的忙碌。
也许是因为疲倦，扒在桌子上，一下子进入了沉睡。
意识在梦和现实中游荡。

下雨给人悲伤的感觉。
我却爱上了它。
喜欢下雨的时节，拿起手中的伞，浪漫的散步；
喜欢下雨的时节，观赏人们狼狈地奔跑躲雨；
喜欢下雨的时节，让我忆想起童年在雨中尽情玩耍。

有多少人愿意在你的一生中停留?
有多少人愿意与你分担喜怒哀乐?
有多少人懂得用心去爱你?
就像下雨的时节，人总是奔跑着，从你生活中奔跑。
那怕只是一分一秒。

雨天留下的是阴阴淡淡的感觉。
希望明天会是个晴朗的一天；
灿烂的阳光就像强大的力量，支持我走完这段路程。
就像你是我的精神的支柱。

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I will never show the scene behind me.
Let all the acting play in role.
Let everything cover the sadness.
Let ....

Good morning.
Another day.

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Sem 3

Here comes the end of Sem 3.
This sem was kinda stress, not only with studies but as well as reports.
Reports always stack like a hill!
Basically, our life is full with assignments, exams, presentation, reports during this sem.
However, this sem passed so fast that without realizing, it's already end of November now.

There were arguments, there were laughters too.
Glad that everything had settled and my classmates are still in close with each other.
No doubts, they are the best classmates after all.

We were addicted to 'Plant vs Zombie' and Bejeweled recently.
These few days we wasted so much time in the class because there is no lecture, and we waited from morning til afternoon just for a class!
We were like those kids waiting for SPM examination.
So relax yet tension.

It's Kwen's Birthday today.
We had dinner in Swensen's.
One thing I feel regret is I don't get to eat the ice-cream because I was too full!
I will go after final!

Right now, concentrate for final and I can't wait to have FUN after final!
All the best, my fellow mates.

Author says, BE RIGHT BACK!

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Thanks for being so cruel to me.
I learn, and I will grow up.

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The feeling is complicated just like shit!
This is torturing.
Can I hide away? Far away...

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I feel good.

Today.
Is a good day.
I was so in mood of singing. And the problem is I am singing the same song over and over again.
Well, I have to say paiseh lar hor, to the person beside me who have to bear with my super duper 'high' pitch voice.
I was just.. haha!
Singing out loud could be fun sometimes. I don't care how bad I sang.
Lalala.

And I get to eat Choki-choki! After craving for so long!
Went to two shops of 7-eleven but out of stocks! And finally, I got it!
I was so so so happy.
Happiness is just that simple, you know?!
;)

Wee.~

Xie xie ni.

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Had a little heart talk with dad just now.
Never talk to him about my personal stuffs all this while, but this is my first time.
Of course, as a daddy, as a man, he gave me advices.

Thinking back, it was all my fault.
'If you don't say A, people won't say B.'
It's too late to undone everything, so look forward.
You can't turn back time, so make sure it's the right choice.

I dunno what to say anymore.

人是要用头脑来想东西的。
现在的我什么都不要想了。
累了。
明天是好的一天！

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暖暖




都可以随便的 你说的 我都愿意去
小火车 摆动的旋律
都可以是真的 你说的 我都会相信
因为我 完全信任你
）
细腻的喜欢 毛毯般的厚重感
晒过太阳 熟悉的安全感
分享热汤 我们两支汤匙一个碗
左心房 暖暖的好饱满

我想说 其实你很好 你自己却不知道
真心的对我好 不要求回报
爱一个人 希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的 你比自己更重要

都可以随便的 你说的 我都愿意去
回忆里 满足的旋律
都可以是真的 你说的 我都会相信
因为我 完全信任你


细腻的喜欢 你手掌的厚实感
什么困难 都觉得有希望
我哼着歌 你自然的就接下一段
我知道 暖暖就在胸膛

我想说其实你很好 你自己却不知道
真心的对我好 不要求回报
爱一个人 希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的 你比自己更重要

我想说其实你很好 你自己却不知道
从来都很低调 自信心不高
爱一个人 希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的 你比自己更重要

你不知道 真心的对我好 不要求回报
爱一个人 希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的 你比自己更重要
我也希望变更好

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Update Update

Too many things happened to my family recently.
After one lost, another of my uncle was admitted to the hospital.
Glad that he is alright now and has been discharged yesterday.
Visited him that day, alone.
Been so close with him when I was young. And out of sudden, I miss the moments of us play and fool with him in mum's shop.
10 years passed. He is becoming thinner, and I am in the other way round?
It was quite awkward at first because there were only both of us in the ward.
But we chatted and he is still the same, that funny.

After so many things happened, we appreciate each other even more.
Aunties all came to visit him, and my sibling is becoming more health-conscious.
Good thing, good thing.
But November isn't a good month for my family.

I believe, tomorrow will be a better day.
Up coming next is concentrating in my final exam, but not forgetting to enjoy too.
I need to study smart,
And be healthy!
And be happy!!

=)

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Lost

Received the shocking early in the morning that day.
None of us actually believed it when we first received the call.
This is unexpected. He was okay all this while but he leaves us so suddenly.

The feeling of losing the one you love, your family..
It's so pain and I finally felt the pain.
Relatives waited for me and we rushed to the funeral parlor once I finished my class that day.
Once we reached, tears fall. The moment we went beside the coffin, we cried even louder.
2 days of prayer. 2 days of sitting at the funeral parlor.
A peaceful place, but I really hate the feeling.

Today, the prayer ceremonies are over.
The wailing of the mourners reaches a crescendo.
All of us turned away during the sealing of the coffin.
When the coffin is nailed up, everyone cried.
I thought all these days they were so tough in accepting the fact, but they were not. Everyone cried so hardly today. That feeling, is like a knife stabbed into your heart.

At the cemetery, the coffin is burned.
We kneel down in front of the stove, looking at the fire, we shout for his name and we cried so terribly.
He leaves us at such a young age...

So many unusual things happened after the ceremony.
We received a miss call from the deceased.
Is it means that the deceased wants to tell us that he is fine, or is it someone accidentally pressed it?
Let it be a mist.

Alright, shall back to my mood.
I'm tired.
Life is short. So, appreciate.

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I felt so much pain, right in my heart. Thousand of words in my mind but I can't express it.
Dont... Sook Yee, don't think about it anymore.

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Speechless 2

I was so emotional just now. I got no idea why. It has been kept in my heart so long ago. You know what, I really felt so pain, deeply. After expressing, it make me feel much better. Talking about responsibility at this point is useless.

I am feeling calmer now. After a jog with Bobo.. Thinking hard.. Why are we reacting this way? No idea. Just hope, tomorrow will be a better day for us. It was a lesson for both of us. An unforgettable one.

I would like to say, thank you for all these days.
It's never been easy. Ups and Downs. Joys and Tears.
I hope you are doing well in the coming days.
I will keep updated.
It was a misunderstanding.

Sorry.

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SPEECHLESS

My heart felt so pain, so much pain. If you are thinking that it's all my fault, then blame me. Right now, I felt so helpless. I don't want to care about it anymore. I don't want to hear, see, sense or what so ever. I am so stupid for everything. I am so stupid! Why do I care so much? Why do I feel so hurt seeing all those? Why do I feeling such way? Look forward, that's all I can do.

I shouldn't think about it anymore. How long can I live? I should deserve a better life with more happiness. These few days were sucks. Thinking about what had happened made me feel so sick. All that were so sucks! I felt glad seeing you being so tough. I feel glad alright, I am happy for you. But please don't be this way..Tell me, who won't think about the past? If you hate it so much, then forget it.

You don't give a damn. Then I don't give a damn too! I am not angry but what made me feel so terrible now is, why when things happened, you push all the responsibility. Alright, blame me. My fault for bringing things into this stage. if you are tired, I am feeling tired too. I never thought things will become this way. But things already happened. Nothing else I can say - Speechless.

Everyone came and asked me. As if it's all my fault. Seriously, I felt so depressed. I will take it as its all my fault. I am so tired ady. This is really pain.

Sorry, ignore my terrible grammars or what-so-ever. This is just my personal thoughts, random one before class starts.Till then. Off.

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明明很想哭，却还在笑。

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。

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Finally.. Finally, I'm done with everything. All the assignments, exams, seminar..
I can finally breath.
Up next will be clinics' reports.
And jogging!

Good. I love busy life.

STOP thinking! Do your work!

My Bobo really cute. ♥

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Eating wanten mee curry that I used to eat. The mee taste different this time. I hope it was the spiciness that....

I thought I am strong enough. But I am not.

我很想找個人, 對我說別怯慌..

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告诉自己，这是一个新的一课。

所以在未来的日子里，我要有新的目标！
1- 活得健康
2- 活得幸福快乐
3- 存钱
4 - 减肥
5- 快乐.. 还是快乐！

我越来越喜欢忙碌的日子了。
忙得透不过气，时间才会过得比较快。

以后的路，是一个人了。
以前的是曾经拥有。未来若有疤痕，也是我人生的印记。
乐观免不了沮丧， 沮丧过后还是乐观。
我要加油。

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I thanks to people for concerned about me.

CL said: do you need a listener? just want you to know. lots of people cares of you. and your smile will makes people around you happy. so, faster get well... and back to your life.esokchai, sure is tough tough kids. opps, adult... xD

Till then.

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Right now, I am in the class. Listening to his lecture. 3 hours. It's not that I don't want to pay attention. It's just, I can't. My mind isn't with me now. I can't think, don't ask me to think.

I need a peaceful mind. It wasn't a good day day for me. But seeing my fellow classmates going back to their hometown for holiday makes me feel happy for them. Seeing them smiling so happily, I  know they are feeling excited for it. I should feel glad that I actually staying with my family although it was kinda tiring of travelling everyday. Sometimes, you have to sacrificed to gain something.

There is always say easier than done. Today, things seems shadowed. Driving alone on the road, listening to songs that sound reflecting my feeling, which make me feel even worse.Feeling pain in the heart but you have to tell yourself from time to time to be tough. Feeling sad but you have to tell yourself from time to time not to cry. Feeling alone but you have to tell yourself from time to time that you are not alone.

Too many things to express..
I am sorry. But I'm feeling thankful at the same time.
Maybe 'time' is the only medicine I need.

Till then.

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1st Nov 2010

So fast, so fast.. It's November already!
4 assignments to be complete in this week.
Exhausted, really exhausted.

Right now, I am so happy because Public Relations's assignment is completed!
It included our hard works, ideas, hand made, designs. ha!
Thanks a lot, team mate! Heh.
Sorry if sometimes I rushed you, if I said anything that hurts you. You know la, the nature of girl..

See, nothing is impossible.
Look at the logo we designed!
From the beginning we were complaining that we shouldn't be in the same team.
Argued for different ideas. Condemning about the works.
Finally, it's done!

All the best doing the next assignment.
Till then, it is just a short post, telling you guys how great I feel.

As a lesson, don't do last minute work!
=)

November, I hope it will be a good month.

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Your 20's

Another year's gone.
There goes the NIO-Kakis went for sing K again.
Once in a year. On the same date.
Check out the last year's post. Serdang Boy's Birthday

It's the Serdang Boy's birthday.
The whole class gave him a big surprise.

He thought we were only celebrating his birthday at Wong Kok.
He never knows the fun was after that in the Neway.
Trying to fool around. Trying to act. Trying to delay the time.
It's never been easy okay. Hah.
Thanks to everyone.

Blowing off the candle.

You are now stepping into 20's.

Happy Birthday.

Hope you enjoyed the surprise.

=)

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Frisbee.

Frisbeeee.

Had Frisbee session with my Uni-Kakis.
It was a sunny windy day.
10 of us, standing at the middle of the field, playing Frisbee. Not that easy.
But some of them just have the potential.

It was my first time playing this. I believe, it was their first time too.
Never knew Frisbee could be that fun.
You need skills, confident, technique to pass the Frisbee.

5 people per team.
Passing, jumping, screaming, laughing, teasing, yelling, running ...
Got sweat after playing for awhile. Running is tiring I have to say.
It's even tiring than jogging. =X

Opponent team have a great short distance passing.
Standing at aside, looking at them, everything was just so nice and simple.
I really enjoyed it.
Thanks to Ben for introducing this game to us.

Us. Yvonne and I.

Putting that aside..
That talk.. Erm, I shall take it positively.
At least, I enjoy listening to the jokes and ideas.
At least, I feel the energy and power of youngsters.
At least, I am not alone.
Can I take it that way?
Everyone need Vitamin M.
I can't stop laughing when they suggested : one of the way to get $ is by marry to an old rich man who are dying soon. Wee.
I want to be a millionaire and retire before 30 years old! Is that possible? ...

Stop dreaming!
What I need is time to study la! =(
I am tired. I need some rest. Good Night.

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Ass-ignments

It's raining outside. I love rainy night. It make me feel like lying on the bed and go asleep. The weather been changing dramatically recently. Everyone is falling sick. Bad weather!

This month's ECs isn't that bad. Among all the 8 subjects, there is only one writing exam. Others will be given as assignments. Tell me, should I be happy about it? The stacks of assignments are killing me. I can't breath! It's flooding...

I've been facing the lappy since 8.30am. How many hours? You count! 1, 3, 5 .. 14 hours! And I will be continuing facing it after blogging. Right now, I need a rest. My backbone is feeling pain, my head is feeling pain, my eyes is feeling tired.

Okay. Till then. I am having a busy life.
Shall off to work.
=(

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It was saved as draft..

Friday night, 22/10, went for dinner with uni mates after class. As usual, Piccadily. The day was still early. We had our dinner at 6 something. Listening to the music, watching at the television, looking at them..

I am sorry that sometimes I really couldn't control my emotions. When the music plays, when the memory strikes, there comes the emotion. I know you guys tried so hard not to make me recall of any unhappy moments, I really get it. And I really appreciate it. But I just, failed to make myself better.

Guinness Stout, I had that after our meal. I had a small cup of it. It's my very first time drinking. Obviously, alcohol doesn't suit me. I can't drink. Frankly speaking, it does not taste nice. I don't enjoy drinking, but I enjoyed the feeling. I always wondered, what's so good about drinking. I thought drinking could make yourself feel much better and dream like what you wanna to. It doesn't work on me. How much I hope to be drunk so that I can't remember anything. How much I hope my brain stop thinking.

I shouldn't be like this way. 'Alfanso' gave me some advice which is kinda right. No worries, I'm not alcoholic! That night, my field of mind is wider. I appreciate each and every one of them for accompany me, cheers me up, care me and so on.

I hate complicated life.

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How are you? This question been popping out from my mind. It's the first time, without any greetings from you for the whole day. Yes, I am not used to it. Looking at my hand phone, no message, no miss call. Nothing. I got no courage. The message is there, but i got no courage to press the send button.

It's another day. You seems alright over there?
"It's glad to see your happy face in that video. It feels really good too knowing that you have great friends around you. Being too busy is an avoid, but I'm okay after seeing the video. Farewell, I shall be gone from your life. (I did not approve your friend request & if these were sent through sms, you will say you are too busy to reply. So read this here)"

I'm praying hard. So that I could go through this. Staying at home after class make me feel even worse. I am alone at home, even bobo goes emo with me. I failed. Even making myself so busy is useless. Time please move faster.

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I wasn't in mood for anything. I'm praying hard so that I will forget everything once I wake up. Greeting them with a fake smile on my face. Chatting with them in a way I'm forced to talk. Driving without direction to uni, aimlessly. This is so NOT me.

I blame myself for all these. I shouldn't have been acting strong. I shouldn't have changed. I shouldn't been act like I doesn't care. I shouldn't think that the whole relationship is stable without me doing anything. With all my effort trying to think positively, still, I failed. I am such a failure. I hate myself, I curse myself!

Thinking again and again. I have to back to reality. I hope I could have focus on something better, trying to make myself as busy as I could. Please, make my schedule fully book. I hope people come to disturb me all the time so that my mind has no time to think about it, so that the time could flies faster. Don't leave me alone. I'm afraid. My tears can't stop falling. I fall, i fall seriously. I can't make myself smile, I can't.

I need to be strong. I must be strong.

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If the heart can tears.
If the smile will die.

Leave me alone.
I need some time.
I need a friend by my side now.

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Looking back at this picture..

What does it remind to you?

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ARGH!

It's sunny outside. The weather is terrible.
The sun is too sexy, it's too HOT.
That's why! I'm sick.

Cough, flu, headache, fever all came to me.
I hate to be sick.
It makes me feel so weak and uneasy.
It stops me from eating yummy foods.
It causes me talk like a duck. Or chicken?
It makes me feel so tired!

Right now, I'm in the MacDonalds.
I'm alone. And this is my first time feeling so lonely.
Grr.
I need to online and my house couldn't access to the internet.
Wanna steal neighbour's line also tak ade.

Sometimes, I enjoy being alone.

But sometimes, I'm not!

Look at my stupid face. = =

I'm sitting here without any meals or drinks on my table.

Should I get one? Argh.

Whatever!

Off..

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Sambal Belacan Story

The Sambal Belacan Story

I personally think this is the best story ever for celebrating 1 Malaysia Day.
We're all different, but still same same.


Moving away all those negative ones,
Malaysia, still I love you!

Sambal Belacan, slurp!

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10 10 10

有人比我早了一步，写了 101010 的 post。
101010 十全十美?
刚好又是星期日，应该算是好日子吧?
不要紧，反正不关我的事~


不知道什么时候开始...
比以前更注重健康
发现自己变粗鲁了
发现自己变迟钝了
发现自己什么都拿来烦

有时自己会一个人傻笑

有时自己会一个人悲伤
喜欢拿相机左拍拍，右拍拍
喜欢上了运动，虽然还是输给了懒惰
不过，这些事都算是好事！


最近身边的人都发生了些事
人与人的误解，我不喜欢
但这些都是我们必须走的一段路
不经一事，不长一知
它，扩大了我的思考范围
你，分享了我的喜怒哀乐


对任何事情，都应该往不同的角度去想
站在最高峰，一眼看下去
把所有都给看清
我不应该偏向任何一方
我好像变得会想了。


对！我应该多用用我的脑
应该好好的分析每一件事情
不用脑会变笨！


我感恩，
感恩对我好的人
感恩关心我的人
感恩爱我的人
感恩疼我的人
感恩给我快乐的人
感恩让我流泪的人


其实快乐是很简单的
今天，1零吉给了我快乐
谢谢你~

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Sum it all.

It's been a long time since I last updated my blog.
Been so busy with exams and assignments for the past few weeks. Having exams and assignments at the same time is killing.
We were so exhausted and pimples can't stop popping out.
Class starts at 8.30am and ends at 5.30pm almost everyday.
Highway is jam, classes are peak, lots of works especially reports.

This is insane. This is ridiculous.
However, we went through it.
I'm lucky. I'm lucky. I'm lucky.
At least, this week is a bit relaxing.


Alright. Let pictures do the talking.

Big sis came back for 2 days. Of course, we miss her. But I felt bad for not spending much time with her.

My little naughty cousins.

One word she said that made me feel touch: 我不会哭，我只会笑。
Perhaps I should hold this attitude in life.
My this little cousin, she really rarely cry.

Murni-ed with my N.I.O kakis once after the exam. Eating and chatting with them was fun. The feeling after exam was so so so great!

Went to watched mum and sis's performance.

And then Wong Kok-ed with N.I.O kakis after class.

Time flies. It's October.
I hope this month will be a good one.


Till then~

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