Summary of 2016

Hey hey hey
I know I have not been updating for months.
Busy, just too busy.

Before a new post for my 2017, lets do a quick sum up for my 2016.

Moments that I felt glad in 2016:
1. Win $$ for the very FIRST time in Genting - still excited till now.

2. Got the key for my own very FIRST apartment

3. Joined Association of Optometry after years of graduations & became one of the committee members for Optometric Symposium

4. Managed to balance up my studies while working during weekend

5. Found a new place as locum (and I am still working in the company till today - PROUD)

6. Joined eye care charity event (which I have been wanted to contribute my part to the society)

7. Bought air tickets for travel in 2017, 2 countries!!

8. Passed semester 2 of my Master course (I passed the damn clinical exam!)

9. First concert - JAY Chou's !! *love*

10. Managed to collect my thesis data as scheduled

11. Able to spent quality time with family despite of pack schedule

12. Able to travel to Bangkok with family despite of pack schedule

13. Able to made a short getaway with Mr boyfriend despite of pack schedule

14. Still so in love with Mr boyfriend ;)

2016 passed in a glance.
Its just a busy year with studies which I don't really had much time to reminiscing it.
What I remember was how Mr boyfriend & I managed to squeezed time for each other. As I rented a room in KL, our lepak place was always Sunway Putra Mall / Quill City Mall. It was also a year that I visited IOI Mall a lot - place that I spent my time the most during my exam period, assignments or simply waiting for Mr boyfriend for lunch/dinner.
I am glad that we both able to find a way to meet each other regardless of the situation.

;)
till then. I am looking forward 2017 too.

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我的幸福

如果有人问我，什么是幸福？

我会说：

幸福 是，
有人对你笑，对你哭；
有人陪你笑，陪你闹，陪你疯；
有人和你共有一样的兴趣；
就算兴趣不同，也很乐意地陪伴对方；
有人哪怕累了，也愿意陪着你；
有人愿意抽空自己的时间给你；
有人愿意大老远过来就为了见那一面；
有人愿意买给你一些你不舍得买的东西；
有人愿意静静地呆在你身边，就算什么都不做；
有人一直灌你喝水；
饿了，有人带你去吃；
有人不介意你变胖，只怕你吃不饱；
有人在未来预算了 - 你；
有人愿意聆听你的囖说，却讽刺你说’烦‘；
有人接受你的缺点；欣赏你的优点；
有人在无论任何时间都默默地支持你；
累了，有人帮你按摩，就算是帮你做些很奇怪的怪癖；
哭了，有人给你拥抱；
气了，有人出来哄你开心。

如果你感觉幸福，那你的另一半也应该觉得如此。
因为这些幸福是需要两个人培养的。

其实两个人在一起，
只要简单爱，
无需炫耀
我们从不轻易说那三个字
自己知道在对方的心里面的重量就行了。
任何时刻，都要记得大家当初在一起的承若。

谢谢老天爷，

我遇见了

我的幸福。

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独立，有错不?

独立的女生：
1。努力工作，为事业而奋斗
2。关心别人对她的意见，但不会让他们干扰他的兴趣
3。会从错误中学习，绝不会允许自己犯同样的错误
4。有自己的主见
5。懂自己要什么，对另一半的要求很高
6。有自己的生活方式
...

如果可以选，谁想那么地独立？
过于独立让自己觉得很累，会想有个依靠。
好像全世界的事都关她屁事，什么事她都一个人搞定，好像她自己很厉害酱。

越是独立，也会有柔弱的一面。
请不要高估独立的女孩，她们内心很脆弱的
没有人了解她们的有着藏着自己精神的角落
也许她们在亲情，爱情，友情受过伤；导致她们开始学着不依赖别人。

有时候，独立是被逼出来的。

其实.. 每位女生都会有个内心被宠爱，被呵护的需要。

只要你比她们强；无论在事业/生活/人品/能力；

要不，你就比她们阳光；

你就赢了。

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Life as a Post-grad

Hi, Mid of 2016.

Time is running very quickly. I remembered how much stressed I had in the semester 2 of my post-grad life.
Been chasing after the time. Tonnes of presentations, assignments, postings, reports, assessments etc. 3 presentations is a day, rushed assignment in 2 days, prepared dissertation proposal within 2 weeks.
Really exhausted.
Yet sem 2 was all about self-learning, glad that I am able to went out for dates, dinner, movies with my favorite people.

I always cant wait to end this post-grad life. I cant wait to step into the society, to work, and to earn money again.
Yes, you might be jealous of my student's life.. but probably you dont know how much courage needed to quit your job, back to university & compete with those 'younger' than you, crack your head to memorize again (getting old now T.T ), no income (most importantly!).
Please dont tell me: aiyoo ask from your parents lah.
No, I just can't accept their money. It's time to take care of myself, with my own savings.
So, post-grad student is "MEMANG MISKIN".
Apa pun naik harga, how to survive? 

Thanks to myself- my mentality, my strength, my body
Thanks for enduring my stress + tiredness from part time work.
Thanks for being good and hold on throughout my hard times.

Whatever it is,
I know after this, I won't be going back to the life as a student. I won't. I don't think I will continue my PhD. *i think i will go crazy*
So I will REALLY 'enjoy' this journey -18 months of a life as a student. I will need to make sure that I enhance my knowledge, and contribute to the society one day.
I am not a girl that has a big dream. I am just an ordinary girl, seeking for a better life by being a citizen that contributes with my own profession.

I am happy with what I am having now. This post is probably will be useful to remind me: to be glad for everything, to endure some challenges in life, to flash back my student's life.
So that one day when I turn back & look at my past, it is something that can be proud of.

Post grad life, CHEERS!

NERD enough!

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一个人在KL生活点滴 02

我很久没有写部落格了

不知不觉，一个人在KL已经6个月了！

感恩我上个学期过关，感谢身边的人不断鼓励我，爱护我。

这星期开始了第二个semester

可是才第一个礼拜，就开始感觉到了压力

所以我需要多一个愿望，顺顺利利的过关！

其实我们在不同的阶段，就应该尝试不一样的东西

几个月前，我真的很想放弃

真的不想要再承受学业的压力，我也不想完全没有收入

爸爸说要给我点钱，可是我很坚决的不拿！

我的储蓄就只是留给每个月的支出，住宿，学费等等

我很努力的省，哪怕就只吃面包

所以 只要没有上课，我都会做part time

有时候 当然会觉得累啊 可是也得顶硬上

这些日子里，感恩男友的鼓励，偶尔带我出去吃，买东西给我

回到家里

妈吗总是买多几个饼干 虽然她没说是买给我的 但是她知道我一定会拿去吃

爸爸会不时的进来我房间 叫我多吃水果

姐姐妹妹会等我回来才请我去吃好料

感触 

其是 我庆幸我离开了那2年工作的地方

不是公司不好 我跟同事也很融洽

只是有些人 打扰了我的生活

我也不想因为某些人而影响我的感情生活

但他们硬把我留在group里

我无法改变别人所做的 所说的

我能做的 就是做好自己的本份

我不善于拒绝，这点我应该改

现在的我 要学习如何做个更好的女人；

学习控制脾气，学习放开

还是那句

我 要 加 油 ！

要做个 坚强 的 女 人！

要记得感恩，知足。

要微笑 :)

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一个人在KL生活点滴 01

不知不觉来到KL一个人的生活已经一个月了。

还记得那头一天，我是寂寞难耐到。。眼泪都流了。

我一直以来都是独立的，又不是没去过当兵，露营。

但；这次真的不一样。

在这里一回到家，面对的就是4面墙。屋里冷清清，同屋的都是在房里的。

吃得好清淡，都只是steam而已。

如果没有Mr Boyfriend 偶而来找一下我，我想我应该会有depression。

终于来到我梦寐以求的大学生活

以为会有好大的campus，认识很多不同系的同学；

怎知。。课室是比我undergrad 的还要小，还要肮脏！

果然又再失望。

来到这里，

无论你多少岁，工作历都久；大家都是同学。

所以朋友方面都没有问题。

当然，我还是想念undergrad 的朋友和生活。

Post-grad 的学习方法完全不一样了。

只希望，能够顺顺利利的过关。

到这里，

无法天天和我的狗Bobo玩

无法在家里躺在我舒服的床

无法和姐妹们一起出去聊天

无法吃妈妈煮的拿手好菜

无法常常见到Mr Boyfriend

我真的需要坚定

加油吧，愫仪小姐！

;')

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The good time will come.

The past 2 months were considered as a hectic one to my family and me.
Grandma was admitted into hospital, then discharged then being admitted again.
My dog then was knocked by a car few days later and her joint was dislocated.
Too many things happened altogether.

Almost every night we rushed to PPUM to visit grandma and feed her.
Why rush? It's because the staffs will not let visitors in after 8 - 8.30pm.
Even though you managed to escaped at the main entrance, you still have to undergo the second stage, which is the entrance to the ward.
If you miss the 'train'- you have to wait nurse to come out in order to let you in.
The so-called 'train' is the automatic lock door.
But I would like to praise those nurses in PPUM for being so helpful and kind. They even helped my grandma to remove the blackheads on her nose!

家家有本难念的经。
After grandma being discharged, dad decided to fetch her to our house.
Honestly speaking, this is the first time she stay in our house, and this is the first time we taking care of her (with her not well condition).
From being so talkative to barely recognizing us, I had realized how much grandma has became weaker as just compared to few months ago.
She used to walk fairly good and now she can't even walk.

Feeding her, changing her diapers, bathing her, physiotherapy have become part of our daily routine.
I went to pharmacy to buy dressing set, I learnt to clean up her bedsores.
Everyone in the house just give a hand to take care of her.
I believe, despite of lacking experience, we are consider not bad.

Time flies.

Have you realized that people beside us are getting old days by days?
They might not be able to stay with us for a long period, but please do appreciate every moment you get to spend with them.

阿嬤，
愿您早日康复。

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该成长的爱情

回到那熟悉的街道

那可不是一个普通的停车场

茫茫的灯光下照亮我们相伴的倒影。

当时，我们才发现，那些寻常的日子是我们的回忆。

或许我已变得不是以前的我；

不再那么的单纯，那么的容易满足。

或许日子已无法回到从前；

不再那么的自在，逍遥。

当生活不断迈向另一个阶段

身边总有些事情烦恼着我们。

但我们是否可以不被情绪影响

脑袋清晰地解决问题。

我和你一样

要的，都很简单

但我不喜欢把全部都说出来

你却希望我直言直语。

你不需要靠近我，

因为你已走到最接近我❤️的地方。

如果你细心的看看我

你一个拥抱就胜过一切了。

今天，我可能有少许的不愉快 + 少许脾气 

可我要记得这一切

一切.. 

一段爱情，两个人投入，流过那么多眼泪，

是时候，该成长了。

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又一年的情人節

好不容易
那個‘期限’終于過了
那天，我們兩個欣慰得微笑了。
那天也是情人節，你也帶我吃頓好的，好好的慶祝一番。
那天也是我第一次收到你送給我的一束花。。是一束！
我笑得見牙不見眼。
也很特地的炫耀，羡煞旁人。

足足一年了
時間真的過得好快。
這一年，我們是怎樣熬過來的
那份對彼此的信任，諒解，體貼是多麽的濃密。

新的一年，有了新的Revolution
很快的，我們又要踏入另一個Chapter.
要加油, 我對自己說。

謝謝你

給了我難忘的情人節

給了我無比信任和疼愛

每一天都把我當公主對待

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The Last Day of 2014

I always love the last day of every year.

I celebrated the eve with his bestie with dinner, challenging room & yamcha.
Most importantly, the dinner was treated by his friend, even though the main reason for this treat is not for my bday yet I'm still feeling happy about it ;P
And finally, managed to escape from Escape Room! I'm no longer  a loser. *wink*

I have a great family that willing to wait for me till late night just to celebrate with me. I didn't know. So this is why we call it - the surprise.

The story does not end yet. That day itself I was surprised by my siblings.
Early in the morning, as I get into my car, I first saw a 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' sticker on my window.
Once I open the door, I saw a present on the car seat, with another sticker written 'I Love You' placed on the steering.
I love my sisters, so much. They never failed to surprise me, each time.

Kick start the morning with him with the breakfast that we loved, combination of nasi lemak + half-boiled egg and roti.
Headed to watch movie as movie tix was given free by the cinema.
The most exciting thing on that day is the dinner.

Him, first time being so secretive! Drove all the way to KL without telling me where he's bringing me to.
He brought me to a dining place that I have been wanted to try since so long ago.
Dining In The Dark!
It's really an unique and memorable dining experience.
We had the dinner in total darkness, fully depending on our other senses to feel every sound, every movement & every taste.
Our guide is a blind lady, leading us throughout the dinner.
You don't know what you are being served and how to eat it. It's just TOO DARK.

Dinner In The Dark.
With the love & the birthday gift - handbag.

Another surprise came along after our dinner, once we got out from the dark room.
Before I managed to adapt my eyes to the brightness, I was surrounded by all the staffs.
I heard someone playing the guitar, singing birthday song & I saw someone holding a mini cake to me.
Too happy and can't react. Everything was just arranged by him.
And I didn't know he can be that romantic too. *falling-in-love*

This time, we did not go for any new year countdown.
We just don't feel like squeezing with the crowds.

I was blessed...

And then.. here comes the 2015. ;)

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2015 的第一封

我以为我好潇洒，总是叫你去。
原来不到最后一天，都不知道心里其实有那么多的不舍。

我们拥有太多太多的回忆。
每一个角落都似乎看见们的影子。
电台的歌好像唱出我的心声。。害我哭了。
我多么的想坚持却被我的心给出卖了。
我真的希望你在那里放心的打拼。

放心吧，
再多的不舍，我也会好好滴。
然后每天期待我们的约会。
你。。一定要好好的。
我会一直支持   陪着你。

亲爱的，加油。

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一段爱情

两个人在一起久了，就会有所谓的理所当然吗？

你对我的迁就，我把它给理所当然掉了。

我对你的跟随，你把它给理所当然掉了。

我不得不承认，

我可以对身边的人，甚至陌生人，很好；

但我却把我的不耐烦倒影在我最亲的人。

这一个坏习惯，一定要改。

我不算是个小鸟依人的女人。

我不是那种会打夺命连环Call给男友的女人；

多数的男人都想要自己的自由吧，我想。

我不是那种会把❤️挂在嘴边的女人，

我也不是那种会说甜言蜜语的女人。

可以说，我。。很不一般。

但我也会有一般女人的渴望，

我渴望谈一场轰轰烈烈的爱情，但现在我觉得这并不重要。

我只想要谈个稳定的爱情。

我独立，但我渴望被疼爱，被呵护。

我不要求餐餐吃好，但我渴望偶尔在特别的日子，有餐特别点的。

我渴望一般的外出约会。

我渴望拥有自己的家庭，但我害怕踏入别人的家庭。

如何维持一段爱情，我还是个学徒，依然还在学习着。

其实，我是爱你的，

你。。能感受吗？

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这个世界上，每个人都在等一个人。

那天，他打了個電話給我，興致勃勃說要約我看那一部戯。
《等一個咖啡》，九把刀。
戯名聼下去真的一點也不吸引我。

看了這部戯，我腦袋思考了好多好多的東西。
苦中带泪，笑中想哭 
我的卻是個很感性的女人，我也把自己當成了女主角。所以我特別的感觸。
在戯院裏，我眼淚流個不停。
九大哥，您的戯怎麽都那麽的深奧啊。

它告訴我
愛情，需要的巧合，比我們想像中的還多。
每个人的生命中有许多事情是注定的，其实這都不是偶然，而是缘分让我们相遇，以等待的方式、等待缘分的到来。
情人往往是从好朋友开始的；但也因为相处久了，渐渐的习惯了那个人在你的身旁。爱情来临时可能根本察觉不到就跟它擦肩而过了。
大學時期，因爲我們在 lab 同一組才開始和他説話。
我們開始從取笑對方，聊心事，做好朋友，一起吃早餐，一起溫習功課，直到相戀，相愛。
慶幸的，在我們快擦肩而过時，是月老的紅線把我們給牽著了。
我們當初是度過了多少的風風雨雨才在一起的

咖啡，
有苦涩的、有甘醇的，有浓郁的。
杯里咖啡折射出每一个人不一样的爱情和人生
每个人都在等着一杯适合自己，一杯属于自己的咖啡
青春期喜欢一个人很单纯很简单， 喜欢就是喜欢。
我相信有一天我会遇到一个特别的人，彼此只属于对方。
我遇上了，也等到了。

我會很珍惜這一段情

这个世界上，每个人都在等一个人。
妳，等到那一個人了嗎？

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Another Moment, My Graduation

Yes, i actually did graduated and had been working for one year.
I always complaint the university for having the graduation ceremony LATE.
They keep changing the date and finally the date is set one year after we graduated.

I thought I will never have any excitement for it.
But the truth is, I do care about this ceremony.
Until that day itself. The moment I was standing on the stage for my certificate.
And I realized, this was the thing that I was waiting for.
Looking at my parents, how proud they are.
Looking at my classmates, how tough we had been through.

I can't believe that the sense of MISS SCHOOLING LIFE is still rolling in my heart.
Ashley made me thought of the first day.
How lonely is everyone.
How dynamic is our class.
My tears, fall truly from my heart.
NIOS Batch 4 will always be in my heart.
I'll never forget, each of them.

Thank you classmates for bringing so much cheers and joys during the class. I was too lucky to be in batch 4.

Thank you daddy mummy and siblings for being so supportive all this while. You guys always encouraged me and volunteered to be my subject during my clinic practice.

Thank you University for making me meeting the love of my life. We studied for exam, slept in the car, had dinner to skip traffic jam. How much splendid moments University had brought to us.

Thank you University for making me a good Optometrist.

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Runaway to Gold Coast

Planning a future vacation is a motivation.
A motivation for me to work harder, earn more.
I am just an ordinary girl, who love to travel all around the world.
He said, let's plan another trip. And I smiled.

A runaway from hectic work,

Finish up all my annual leaves (I left 2 days AL this year T.T),

Spending time with his family, 

Spent all my Ringgit Malaysia,

Stayed in a harmony town,

Hugged a Koala bear, 

Said Hi to Kangaroo,

Caught a fish for the first time in my life,

Honeymoon with boyfriend.

It was so so so awesome.

Why time runs so fast when I'm happy?
5 days spent in Gold Coast, Australia is just not enough for me.
Throw my iPhone asides, skip away from my work.
Beautiful moments meant to be remember.
The time passed so fast, making me value the time I spent.
The people, the scenery, the sea, the wind, the theme park, the foods.

Just a 2 hours of difference from Malaysia,
Even I am back to Malaysia, I am still used to waking up at 5am and feeling sleepy at 10pm.
It goes on and on.

I wish I could turn back time and stop it.
I miss everything in Australia.

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