The Diary, The Thoughts ♥: April 2010

>> Friday, April 30, 2010

It's running.. It's running in my mind again!

I think.. I think...

Sighs.

Okay, I shall stop here.

The Earthquake

>> Monday, April 26, 2010

The author says she wanna write down some important notes.

Today, at around 3.05pm, when we were studying, we felt shakiness.
Fyi, we were on the 3rd floor.
At first, I never thought of earthquake. But when Jane asked, all of us stunned.
It's earthquake. Really.
We felt it twice.

Ya, supposed to feel excited as it was the first time I experienced it.
But at that moment, my heart feels uneasy.
Somewhere else around the world must be having earthquake at the same time.
What's gonna happen to them?

Disasters are happening.
It's time to wake up, isn't?!
Show some responsibilities, be a man.

I heard Philippines had earthquake in the morning.
I heard Tsunami gonna attack somewhere in the world.
I heard ....

Please, be green.
Save the earth.

Outtie.

Another Side

>> Saturday, April 24, 2010

Now only I know, the one that we will never understand is ourselves.
You, made me realized of so many things.
Things that I never thought of. How dramatic was it.
After struggling for some time, what you said was right.
I just don't understand myself, you know me more than I do.
I am struggling to climb up, I always said I will climb, but actually I did nothing.
You said, I need a hand, to hold me up.

I'm bad in expressing, i know.
You said I rather hide my feeling than expressing it out, which is not good.
I tend to let things happened, and slowly adapted to it.
Then you said, if I'm feeling not alright, I should express it and not adapted to it.
Its not that I don't mind, is I don't care, I try to avoid, you said.
This is my weakness you said.

I changed.
Changed to more emotional. Maybe due to stress, you said.
I was just too busy with studies.
I over-protective on them, you said.

I tried to change myself back to normal, but you don't sense it.
For you, I just changed.
That's why, everything I did, you don't sense it right anymore.

Sometimes, it's just too late to apologize.
I felt the pain, I really felt it.

I want to express it.
Lacrimal gland says she is ready. thank you.

Random.

>> Friday, April 23, 2010

Of randomly.

Pictures taken from Korea and others.
~230 photos?

战

跌倒了，就爬起来啊！
说就容易。
心情应该恢复正常的，我不是已经答应自己了吗?

我。。变了吗?
为什么对某些事不在乎了?
还是觉得怪怪的。
好复杂。

我。。累了吗?
为什么我变得不坚强了?
我。。不是我。

我很努力的改变自己。
很努力的满足别人。
哪我呢?
又有谁看得出我心里的哽咽，心里的不开心?

好想给自己放个假。
好想坐在原地不动了。
淑仪啊淑仪！

>> Thursday, April 22, 2010

年轻的魔羯都是很单纯的，我想他们也不会知道自己将从天使变成恶魔，魔羯座的人天生善良，感情也都很脆弱，也许会因为一些很小的事情难过很长时间，所以他们通常在表面表现的酷酷的与事隔离的样子，其实他们只是不希望让别人看到他脆弱的一面，坚强，理智，承受是魔羯的代名词，他们并不是很随便的表达自己所想，他们希望了解身边所有人的性格，并不是因为好奇，好象只是因为一种安全感，为了保护自己魔羯生出了一种特殊能力。　　　　

魔羯相对任何星座来比能在最段时间看出一个人的性格无论他们在如何隐藏，这点很像天蝎但是他们却看不出对方的心，他们很容易就会了解到他们身边每一个人的优缺点，但是他们通常不会说出来，也不会太介意，所有的魔羯都很包容对方请记得，如果有一只魔羯指出你的缺点那一定是友善的，虽然他们会用一种讽刺的口气来指出．　　　　　　

所有魔羯都拥有２个性格，只是大部分魔羯都不愿意去接受，因为他们希望自己永远的傻傻的活下去，魔羯的坏可以媲美过所有星座，也许他们不相信，但是随着时间的积累魔羯的人在慢慢变坏，其实这也是一种自我保护，他们需要知道了解自己最后的一张王牌，做不做就看对方是否达到让魔羯抱负的地步了，这并不是在表扬，似乎用阴险可以形容，当魔羯讨厌一个人的时候那就是一种绝对，魔羯不会随便讨厌一个人，但是如果哪个人做的太过分，这个人会从魔羯心底彻底抹杀，如果这个人激怒了魔羯，呵呵那么这个人就只能等着灾难的降临。　　　　　　

魔羯是个比较城府的人，他们不会表面去得罪了，但是他们会计划着让这个人知道他所做的事情将会给自己带来多大的回报，魔羯的报复手段极其残忍，他会加倍的还给你，（如果你有一天遭受到摸名的灾难那么你去想想你在什么时候得罪了魔羯）魔羯并不会随便的去加害一个人，因为魔羯也讨厌自己的坏，他们是天才的杀手，一切的一切从很早以前就做好计划，而且这些计划在没有事件出现前他们就在考虑如何完美并无破绽的进行报复计划，也许这些和他的悲观有些联系，魔羯的人很了解世界，但他们固执的相信美好尽管自己知道那是不可能的，大部分魔羯都讨厌坏坏的自己，当然想抛弃自己是不可能的。　　　　

朋友（最喜欢装傻的星座）　　
魔羯的人都很没有安全感，他们喜欢在任何人面前装傻，这可不是一般的装傻能力，魔羯人聪明就在于这点，他们认为只有傻子在会不牵扯到任何伤害，与其做一个聪明的人不如当一个傻子平凡而又随意，如果不是值得魔羯相信的朋友魔羯永远不会让对方知道自己会有智慧，而无论安全与不安全魔羯对朋友都很真，他们很珍惜些朋友。　　
他们最希望获得朋友的信任，如果从一个朋友那里得不到信任，他不会再与这个朋友交往下去．和魔羯接触过的人都会认为他们脾气很好，好的似乎发傻，其实他们并不是脾气好，只是他们很会装，因为他们了解身边的朋友的所有性格，所以他们在包容对方，就算你做了什么过分的事，他们也早就想考虑好如果对方为什么会这样做，最明显一点，你们可以去看看身边魔羯的朋友，无论你怎么做那些魔羯都不会很惊讶的，其实他们已经知道你为什么会这样了．魔羯的交友观也很随便，他们可能会和贵族很好，也可能会和乞丐聊天，一切的一切只是心灵的交往，很少有魔羯会有势力眼，除非你这个人品太差了。　　　　

感情（超级白痴）　　
魔羯的人傻的可以，他们并不了解爱情，但是他们只知道爱的感觉，对于他们任何感情的表达都是一种感觉，他们很认真的感受每一个感觉，大部分感觉都可以一个人去感觉，最失败的爱却要两个人，傻傻的魔羯一开始会认为，爱你是我自己的事情和你没关系，可是到后来越来越感觉不是滋味，于是开始对对方表白，表白成功后却不知道如何走下一步，也许是太不浪漫在作祟，魔羯的人可能会拿任何事情开玩笑，但是在爱情方面只要他说出'我爱你'或者话题谈到将来结婚，那么他绝对不是在开玩笑，魔羯很物质，但是这点和金牛处女不一样，他们的物质表现在爱上，他们认为给所爱的人带来无限的物质的就是最大的幸福，因为他们很自卑，唯一能用自己努力获得来的就只有物质了。　　
当自己努力的去让自己所爱的人幸福的时候，自己所爱的人却因为其他的其他离开了他，而到最后自己却不明白自己到底做错了什么，真是可怜的家伙们．　　　　

追求: 魔羯的追求是认真的，只要对方不让魔羯认为完全没有机会，魔羯就会像疯子一样的追求着，他们其实对自己非常没有信心，唯一的动力只是相信自己在爱着，为了对的起自己的感情，为了认真的去爱一回．　　　　
被追求:　魔羯对于不喜欢的人不会给予任何机会，魔羯的人很善良，而且他们知道长痛不如短痛的道理，如果魔羯勉强接受了你，那也是出于一种同情心，但是交往没几天他们就开始内疚，他们认为怜悯的爱对追求者来说是一种伤害，他们会尽量的躲避并且对追求者很冷淡追求者尽量的让追求者开始讨厌她／他．如果追求者不理解的话，放心最长不超过一年，魔羯会很理智的告诉你别在联系了，她／他会消失的无影无纵．　　　　

拒绝:　如果魔羯真的爱了就不会去拒绝你，永远不会．　　　　
被拒绝:　魔羯比任何一个星座对感情都很认真，恢复伤痕的时间也很长，他们会选择消失，这样对你对他都有好处，因为他怕多看你一眼而又再次无法自拔　他怕再多看你一眼　心如刀割

Talking Eyes

Conjunctiva says, 'wei, i am feeling itchy la'

Cornea says, 'dun scratch miiiii'

Eyeball says, 'stop rolling pls'

Eyelid say, 'mom, stop blinking.I'm tired'

Eyelashes say, 'I'm tired of sitting up and down mom'

Tears say, 'ENOUGH! Stop secreting miiiii'

I say, 'shut up. I dont wanna too. I'm tired too.'

.....
They say, 'yes mom..... =( '

Silence..
Doesn't mean nothing.

Smile..
Doesn't mean happy.

Sleep..
Doesn't mean tired.

Decision.

>> Wednesday, April 21, 2010

I hate myself for being so lazy.
I hate myself for being so confuse.
I hate myself for thinking too much.
I hate myself for being complicated.
I hate myself for being that way.
Can I don't hate myself?

What will you do when you know something is not right?
What will you do if the feeling is not right?
What will you do when something's changing?
What will you do if you are thinking of doing something that might affect other people?

I need a confirmation.

Random Note:
Happy Hour: 一个男人做什么事情会让你觉得他很有魅力？
I answered: play guitar and sing... just so attractive.. ♥

>> Saturday, April 17, 2010

Right now I am feeling so sleepy.
But I would like to drop down everything before I go to sleep.
Today went to uni as usual.
Did my presentation, which was kind of mess as I don't really get what Dr Aung trying to say. He is from Myammar.
Had my lunch at corner lot.
Revised account, the guard chase us. =(
When we were leaving, someone just U-turn and ask for more... That image, just couldn't out of my mind.
I left my wallet in the car. Glad that no one broke my car. Lols.
I saw a random guy who looks like Wilbert Pan. His gf, 'cun' too. =D
I am a naughty girl. =(

Then BlaBlaBla..
Being Human.
Tears or Laughters? Couldn't differentiate it.

I hope it was a lucky day.
No more unlucky day pls.
Good night.

Confession..

Korea 4/4/2010 - 9/4/2010
This trip meant a lot to me. I couldn't believe that I actually made it to go there by myself. I admit that at first I was feeling nervous. I am the youngest among all. And all the uncles aunties thought I was only age 12-15. They were surprised seeing me joining the trip. Some of them really take care of me. They will take the food for me every time.

Of course, the one I wanna thanks the most is my roommate, Pei Chuan. We accompanied each other and did every thing together. Without her, I think this trip is gonna be boring. Both of us had the feeling of not joining the trip at the first place. We always said that to each other that, because of fate, we met. She was talkative, keeping me feel fresh when I was doing my assignment at night. We had heart-talk session by sharing each other's experience in life. She shared so many things with me. I just felt glad knowing her during the trip. PC, I wish you all the best k? Have child asap! =)

Uncle Keat and Grace.. Uncle Keat was the one helping Pei Chuan and me taking our photos. Two of them were so nice. Grace always says I look like her 12 years old's daughter. I would take that as a compliment. The tour guide Simon always helped and he taught me the way of eating Bibimbap. Marcia, the tour leader who always call me 'Kelly lui', she always look up for me, in case I gone missing wo. And thanks to all of them in the bus la.. especially those sitting behind because they were so noisy all the way in bus!

And thanks to my friends for helping me when I was not around in Malaysia. Too much to thanks, too much to say. You know, I know.

I enjoyed the trip to KOREA!

Korea Day 5

>> Friday, April 16, 2010

9/4 (Friday)

Breakfast at Jinbukyeong Restaurant. Chinese style Buffet.

Shopping at Sinchon.

Ewha Womans University.

The top girl's university in Korea.

I bought this picture for RM 15. Thanks to Simon for pursue-ing! =.=

Lunch at Cheongha Restaurant.

Ham with ramyun stew

Visited Souvenir Shop. Everyone spent all their $ here.

Our slogan: 把钱花光，为国争光！

Proceed to International Airport.

Departure at 4.30pm.

Our last picture.

In the plane.

Korea Day 4

8/4 (Thursday)
Breakfast at Sammi Restaurant. Chinese style Buffet.

Shopping at Cosmetic Shop, WS Nature. I bought a BB-cream, lip gloss.

The lunch and dinner are not provided that day. But the tour company gave everyone 10,000Won. =D

Simon giving $$.

Shopping at Itaewon. Nice place. Bought a lot here.

The ice-cream, 30cm length.

Must eat if you come to Korea!

My lunch, the paus.

Queued for 20mins! Worth.

Back to hotel at 4pm. Self activity. Pei Chuan and I went around the hotel and took pictures.

With Simon and Marcia.

Went to hunt for dinner nearby our hotel. The weather was so cold and we really couldn't stand for it. So we just simply get into a B.B.Q. Restaurant. It was so hard for us communicating with them. We point ups and downs to order the dishes. The food is not cheap, cost us RM 21 each for one piece of pork.