一个人在KL生活点滴 01

不知不觉来到KL一个人的生活已经一个月了。

还记得那头一天，我是寂寞难耐到。。眼泪都流了。

我一直以来都是独立的，又不是没去过当兵，露营。

但；这次真的不一样。

在这里一回到家，面对的就是4面墙。屋里冷清清，同屋的都是在房里的。

吃得好清淡，都只是steam而已。

如果没有Mr Boyfriend 偶而来找一下我，我想我应该会有depression。

终于来到我梦寐以求的大学生活

以为会有好大的campus，认识很多不同系的同学；

怎知。。课室是比我undergrad 的还要小，还要肮脏！

果然又再失望。

来到这里，

无论你多少岁，工作历都久；大家都是同学。

所以朋友方面都没有问题。

当然，我还是想念undergrad 的朋友和生活。

Post-grad 的学习方法完全不一样了。

只希望，能够顺顺利利的过关。

到这里，

无法天天和我的狗Bobo玩

无法在家里躺在我舒服的床

无法和姐妹们一起出去聊天

无法吃妈妈煮的拿手好菜

无法常常见到Mr Boyfriend

我真的需要坚定

加油吧，愫仪小姐！

;')

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The good time will come.

The past 2 months were considered as a hectic one to my family and me.
Grandma was admitted into hospital, then discharged then being admitted again.
My dog then was knocked by a car few days later and her joint was dislocated.
Too many things happened altogether.

Almost every night we rushed to PPUM to visit grandma and feed her.
Why rush? It's because the staffs will not let visitors in after 8 - 8.30pm.
Even though you managed to escaped at the main entrance, you still have to undergo the second stage, which is the entrance to the ward.
If you miss the 'train'- you have to wait nurse to come out in order to let you in.
The so-called 'train' is the automatic lock door.
But I would like to praise those nurses in PPUM for being so helpful and kind. They even helped my grandma to remove the blackheads on her nose!

家家有本难念的经。
After grandma being discharged, dad decided to fetch her to our house.
Honestly speaking, this is the first time she stay in our house, and this is the first time we taking care of her (with her not well condition).
From being so talkative to barely recognizing us, I had realized how much grandma has became weaker as just compared to few months ago.
She used to walk fairly good and now she can't even walk.

Feeding her, changing her diapers, bathing her, physiotherapy have become part of our daily routine.
I went to pharmacy to buy dressing set, I learnt to clean up her bedsores.
Everyone in the house just give a hand to take care of her.
I believe, despite of lacking experience, we are consider not bad.

Time flies.

Have you realized that people beside us are getting old days by days?
They might not be able to stay with us for a long period, but please do appreciate every moment you get to spend with them.

阿嬤，
愿您早日康复。

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该成长的爱情

回到那熟悉的街道

那可不是一个普通的停车场

茫茫的灯光下照亮我们相伴的倒影。

当时，我们才发现，那些寻常的日子是我们的回忆。

或许我已变得不是以前的我；

不再那么的单纯，那么的容易满足。

或许日子已无法回到从前；

不再那么的自在，逍遥。

当生活不断迈向另一个阶段

身边总有些事情烦恼着我们。

但我们是否可以不被情绪影响

脑袋清晰地解决问题。

我和你一样

要的，都很简单

但我不喜欢把全部都说出来

你却希望我直言直语。

你不需要靠近我，

因为你已走到最接近我❤️的地方。

如果你细心的看看我

你一个拥抱就胜过一切了。

今天，我可能有少许的不愉快 + 少许脾气 

可我要记得这一切

一切.. 

一段爱情，两个人投入，流过那么多眼泪，

是时候，该成长了。

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又一年的情人節

好不容易
那個‘期限’終于過了
那天，我們兩個欣慰得微笑了。
那天也是情人節，你也帶我吃頓好的，好好的慶祝一番。
那天也是我第一次收到你送給我的一束花。。是一束！
我笑得見牙不見眼。
也很特地的炫耀，羡煞旁人。

足足一年了
時間真的過得好快。
這一年，我們是怎樣熬過來的
那份對彼此的信任，諒解，體貼是多麽的濃密。

新的一年，有了新的Revolution
很快的，我們又要踏入另一個Chapter.
要加油, 我對自己說。

謝謝你

給了我難忘的情人節

給了我無比信任和疼愛

每一天都把我當公主對待

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The Last Day of 2014

I always love the last day of every year.

I celebrated the eve with his bestie with dinner, challenging room & yamcha.
Most importantly, the dinner was treated by his friend, even though the main reason for this treat is not for my bday yet I'm still feeling happy about it ;P
And finally, managed to escape from Escape Room! I'm no longer  a loser. *wink*

I have a great family that willing to wait for me till late night just to celebrate with me. I didn't know. So this is why we call it - the surprise.

The story does not end yet. That day itself I was surprised by my siblings.
Early in the morning, as I get into my car, I first saw a 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' sticker on my window.
Once I open the door, I saw a present on the car seat, with another sticker written 'I Love You' placed on the steering.
I love my sisters, so much. They never failed to surprise me, each time.

Kick start the morning with him with the breakfast that we loved, combination of nasi lemak + half-boiled egg and roti.
Headed to watch movie as movie tix was given free by the cinema.
The most exciting thing on that day is the dinner.

Him, first time being so secretive! Drove all the way to KL without telling me where he's bringing me to.
He brought me to a dining place that I have been wanted to try since so long ago.
Dining In The Dark!
It's really an unique and memorable dining experience.
We had the dinner in total darkness, fully depending on our other senses to feel every sound, every movement & every taste.
Our guide is a blind lady, leading us throughout the dinner.
You don't know what you are being served and how to eat it. It's just TOO DARK.

Dinner In The Dark.
With the love & the birthday gift - handbag.

Another surprise came along after our dinner, once we got out from the dark room.
Before I managed to adapt my eyes to the brightness, I was surrounded by all the staffs.
I heard someone playing the guitar, singing birthday song & I saw someone holding a mini cake to me.
Too happy and can't react. Everything was just arranged by him.
And I didn't know he can be that romantic too. *falling-in-love*

This time, we did not go for any new year countdown.
We just don't feel like squeezing with the crowds.

I was blessed...

And then.. here comes the 2015. ;)

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2015 的第一封

我以为我好潇洒，总是叫你去。
原来不到最后一天，都不知道心里其实有那么多的不舍。

我们拥有太多太多的回忆。
每一个角落都似乎看见们的影子。
电台的歌好像唱出我的心声。。害我哭了。
我多么的想坚持却被我的心给出卖了。
我真的希望你在那里放心的打拼。

放心吧，
再多的不舍，我也会好好滴。
然后每天期待我们的约会。
你。。一定要好好的。
我会一直支持   陪着你。

亲爱的，加油。

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一段爱情

两个人在一起久了，就会有所谓的理所当然吗？

你对我的迁就，我把它给理所当然掉了。

我对你的跟随，你把它给理所当然掉了。

我不得不承认，

我可以对身边的人，甚至陌生人，很好；

但我却把我的不耐烦倒影在我最亲的人。

这一个坏习惯，一定要改。

我不算是个小鸟依人的女人。

我不是那种会打夺命连环Call给男友的女人；

多数的男人都想要自己的自由吧，我想。

我不是那种会把❤️挂在嘴边的女人，

我也不是那种会说甜言蜜语的女人。

可以说，我。。很不一般。

但我也会有一般女人的渴望，

我渴望谈一场轰轰烈烈的爱情，但现在我觉得这并不重要。

我只想要谈个稳定的爱情。

我独立，但我渴望被疼爱，被呵护。

我不要求餐餐吃好，但我渴望偶尔在特别的日子，有餐特别点的。

我渴望一般的外出约会。

我渴望拥有自己的家庭，但我害怕踏入别人的家庭。

如何维持一段爱情，我还是个学徒，依然还在学习着。

其实，我是爱你的，

你。。能感受吗？

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这个世界上，每个人都在等一个人。

那天，他打了個電話給我，興致勃勃說要約我看那一部戯。
《等一個咖啡》，九把刀。
戯名聼下去真的一點也不吸引我。

看了這部戯，我腦袋思考了好多好多的東西。
苦中带泪，笑中想哭 
我的卻是個很感性的女人，我也把自己當成了女主角。所以我特別的感觸。
在戯院裏，我眼淚流個不停。
九大哥，您的戯怎麽都那麽的深奧啊。

它告訴我
愛情，需要的巧合，比我們想像中的還多。
每个人的生命中有许多事情是注定的，其实這都不是偶然，而是缘分让我们相遇，以等待的方式、等待缘分的到来。
情人往往是从好朋友开始的；但也因为相处久了，渐渐的习惯了那个人在你的身旁。爱情来临时可能根本察觉不到就跟它擦肩而过了。
大學時期，因爲我們在 lab 同一組才開始和他説話。
我們開始從取笑對方，聊心事，做好朋友，一起吃早餐，一起溫習功課，直到相戀，相愛。
慶幸的，在我們快擦肩而过時，是月老的紅線把我們給牽著了。
我們當初是度過了多少的風風雨雨才在一起的

咖啡，
有苦涩的、有甘醇的，有浓郁的。
杯里咖啡折射出每一个人不一样的爱情和人生
每个人都在等着一杯适合自己，一杯属于自己的咖啡
青春期喜欢一个人很单纯很简单， 喜欢就是喜欢。
我相信有一天我会遇到一个特别的人，彼此只属于对方。
我遇上了，也等到了。

我會很珍惜這一段情

这个世界上，每个人都在等一个人。
妳，等到那一個人了嗎？

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Another Moment, My Graduation

Yes, i actually did graduated and had been working for one year.
I always complaint the university for having the graduation ceremony LATE.
They keep changing the date and finally the date is set one year after we graduated.

I thought I will never have any excitement for it.
But the truth is, I do care about this ceremony.
Until that day itself. The moment I was standing on the stage for my certificate.
And I realized, this was the thing that I was waiting for.
Looking at my parents, how proud they are.
Looking at my classmates, how tough we had been through.

I can't believe that the sense of MISS SCHOOLING LIFE is still rolling in my heart.
Ashley made me thought of the first day.
How lonely is everyone.
How dynamic is our class.
My tears, fall truly from my heart.
NIOS Batch 4 will always be in my heart.
I'll never forget, each of them.

Thank you classmates for bringing so much cheers and joys during the class. I was too lucky to be in batch 4.

Thank you daddy mummy and siblings for being so supportive all this while. You guys always encouraged me and volunteered to be my subject during my clinic practice.

Thank you University for making me meeting the love of my life. We studied for exam, slept in the car, had dinner to skip traffic jam. How much splendid moments University had brought to us.

Thank you University for making me a good Optometrist.

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Runaway to Gold Coast

Planning a future vacation is a motivation.
A motivation for me to work harder, earn more.
I am just an ordinary girl, who love to travel all around the world.
He said, let's plan another trip. And I smiled.

A runaway from hectic work,

Finish up all my annual leaves (I left 2 days AL this year T.T),

Spending time with his family, 

Spent all my Ringgit Malaysia,

Stayed in a harmony town,

Hugged a Koala bear, 

Said Hi to Kangaroo,

Caught a fish for the first time in my life,

Honeymoon with boyfriend.

It was so so so awesome.

Why time runs so fast when I'm happy?
5 days spent in Gold Coast, Australia is just not enough for me.
Throw my iPhone asides, skip away from my work.
Beautiful moments meant to be remember.
The time passed so fast, making me value the time I spent.
The people, the scenery, the sea, the wind, the theme park, the foods.

Just a 2 hours of difference from Malaysia,
Even I am back to Malaysia, I am still used to waking up at 5am and feeling sleepy at 10pm.
It goes on and on.

I wish I could turn back time and stop it.
I miss everything in Australia.

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我，一点都不坚强。

很久没写部落格了
或许是因为laptop被病毒侵犯了
也或许是自己变懒了
往往有很多事总在我脑海里围绕
但却不想把它给挖出来。

其实 原来 我一点都不坚强。
现在的我 不再爱把所有的事都分享出来
把自己装的那样坚强
把自己感想深埋着
别人对我做的 说的；
我没反击，我沉默。

你总爱讲我
总爱在大众 部落格里说我
对你，我可能不是个全职女友。
我一直都把所有 所有 藏在心里。
我一直都想做你的好女人。

你的不信任 你的怀疑
我没责怪 我没反抗
我尽量更改
你不喜欢的 你不给的； 我也不会去做了。
但是，
原来事实改变不了。
这一天，这一刻，
你也保持着你一样的态度。

我，这位一点也再不想伪装的女孩；
仰望，把泪水擦掉。
深呼吸
我。。心想。。我好笨。
我不想这样了。

没有了一丝笑容
我淡然的 望着窗外。
你再说的 做的
我暂时听不进。
我的心真的好痛。
因为我做的 真的尽力了
为什么你。。这样对我。

男人, 不要让爱你的女人沉默。
因为沉默是女人无声无泪的哭泣。
如果有一天你的女人；
她不再对你撒娇，
她不再对你任性，
她不再缠着你跟你要这个要那个，
她不再因为你的任何事情微笑或者皱眉。。

我已无力面对你一问再问
我已无力证明心有多诚恳
你要的我都学不会
为你伤悲　为你憔悴
我真的好累

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心，好痛。

在这一刻
我的心 好痛， 好痛
原来，我是撑得那么辛苦。

该做的已做
该避的已避
我到底还能做什么？

我可以放弃 我喜欢的
我可以什么都不要
为什么你不给我机会
为什么你不给我信任
为什么
为什么你总爱把事情反映出来

我真的累了
不是你的错
这全是我的错，是我的错。

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原来

或许，他说得没错。
其实我也相信因果
因又称因缘，果又称果报。
因和果辗转相生，谓之因果报应。
但其实，请别在我面前勾起回忆。

或许，我做错了。
错在当初没坦白
错在心太软 耳太轻
但其实，我以为我可以一个面对。

最痛最疼的；
不是误会 不是争吵
而是少了信任
多了心里一直以来藏下的疤。
当初做的决定，我从来没后悔
但那条疤依然被刻在心上。
原来我在他心目中，不过如此。

曾经付出的
我从不计较
都是一厢情愿 甘心

谢谢
让我知道她在他心目中的地位
原来，他没曾忘记
原来。。

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我恨你
我恨你

你怎么可以那么的不成熟

我恨你！

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苦中一點甜

以前上大學，

只要不舒服就可以自己ambil cuti sendiri。

根本就不用理會功課。

然後回家去，躺在床上休息。

現在上了班，

就算不舒服也得撐著，

忍著，還要微笑面對病人；

繼續把手頭上的工作做完。

的卻好辛苦。

面部蒼白，冒冷汗。

還要在不對的時間，不舒服！

但是

不同的是；

因爲公司有藥房，所以就算不舒服也不用怕沒葯吃。

不同的是；

因爲公司有好同事，所以就算再忙，他們都讓我休息。

還特地買了杯hot chocolate給我。

還一直叮嚀我早點放工。

我有一班好‘ 愛吃’ 的同事。
做了那麽久，我就吃了那麽久。

再這樣下去，不變胖才怪呢！

其實，還蠻有口福的 :)

還有還有，我終于踏入手術室啦！

所以，

苦中，是有一點甜的。

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