In 2009.

One more minute to go 2010.

When I took a glance at the calendar, I know.. it's the end of December, which means the end of 2009. I wonder.. what have I did in this one year? 2009 is a good year I guess. The first 6 months I weren't studying. Lots of fun and outings.

January

Was enjoying the life after high school life. Not studying but working as tuition teacher in E-nopi. Kinda relaxing. Was busying finding new job.

February

Worked in The Body Shop and working as tuition teacher at night. Were so busy with the schedule. Have to arrange the time for both of the working time. It's the month of Valentine. We celebrated in Starbucks but I had Sony C902 as Valentine gift. I sayang that phone so much.

March

I quited from The Body Shop. Can't afford with the tension because we have to pay for every mistake. Got my STPM result. Not really satisfied but nothing else I can do. That's the month I cracked my head to chose the 8 courses.

April

Kinda slacking that month. Only working as tuition teacher, but faced some dilemma. Went Genting with Joker they all. That's my first time joining them. My first time went to Safari.

May

I quited from E-nopi. Worked in Adidas. Nothing much.

June

His birthday. Got the Uni result. A very depress month. It's a month which him and I were far apart. Okay, not really far, just across a sea - Sarawak. But I just can't get used to it. He knows I rely on him, so much. Went Sarawak with him, and sent him off. I was really sad that time.

July

Faced dilemma in choosing course. I was stucked between father's decision and my own decision. I was so confused that time. And I complained and discussed with some of my friends. But really appreciate the advices and suggestions they gave. Of course, thanks to him who encouraged and stand by me all the time.

August

Finally decided to take Optometry in NIO. Bought my lappy. I stepped into Uni's life. A point which indicates I'm no longer a teenager, but I'm steeping into adult stage. It's time to think and act maturely and rationally. There is no turning point. Life goes on. Met friends from different states. This month I was still a bit shy, not really get to mix with them. =p He surprised me by not informing me that he came back during his 1 week break. Tears as sign of happiness.

September

Here comes the better month in mixing with classmates. We played, chatted, laughed with each other. All living in peace and harmony. =) He came back during Raya's break. We went Melaka for one day trip. Great. After that I had my EC2.

October

First time had so many outings after class. Sing K, makan at Serdang etc were so great. Lots of October babies in my class.

November

Faced conflicts in myself. No matter in friendship, relationship, family or whatever. I don't know how does it affect my life. But I just did whatever I'm feeling to. And things changed. Had final exam this month. Very stress. He came back few days before my final but we really meet up because of my exam.

December

There ends the first semester. Outing outings outingss! Went Sunway Lagoon, Johor, Penang and Port Dickson. We did and we ate so many things. Changed my Sony C902 to Nokia E66. I will  sayang it more. Thanks to him. It's my birthday. I am happy this month.

I take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on my road doesn't mean they've gotten lost. Beauty, truth, friendship, love, creation - these are the great values of life. We can't prove them, or explain them, yet they are the most stable things in our lives. 

2010, have a great one ahead peeps.

Live . Learn . Work . Play .
This is what we call as -  LIFE .

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Happy Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

to me.

I'm finally 20.

Congrats.

=)

Rambling: "Treasure Hunter", NO GOOD NO GOOD.

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These 3 days

Today and the coming 2 days are really special.

30th will be my last day of being 19.

31st will be myself turning into 20.

1st I will turn into 21.

One day, one year older.

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Merry Christmas

When you see this post..
It means.. It was scheduled. Heh..
I'm not around.. I am in Penang now!

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

We Wish You a Merry♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥ ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪ Christmas♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥

¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪We Wish You a Merry ♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥ ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪Christmas ♥ ♥ ♥We

Wish You A Merry ♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥ ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪Christmas ♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥

¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪...And A Happy New Year!♪♫•*¨*•.¸¸♥ ¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪...

New begin 2010

Wish all the greatness and happiness fall upon you.. =))

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Who else?

Since you used it as your profile picture in Facebook..

So I am gonna post this up!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

You know words cant express our friendship.

Even pictures also can't.

So.. U know I know..

U know I'l always by your side supporting you.

Take care buddy. All the best in your future undertakings.

See you SOON. Come out meet me pls. =)

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Tow.

When I was on my way back to home, my engine was full of smoke. I'm lucky because I was not alone. My sis and him were with me. Kinda panic at first because my parents were not around. We stopped at the car shop nearby and the foreman advised us to leave my car at their shop because my car is kinda weak. Too bad my parents were worried so they want me to call for tow man. We waited there for around 30mins and there came the tow car. And I was sitting in my car while my car was being towed.
Guess what, I feel great sitting inside!

Injured.

kinda "sam-pat" i know, but I'm excited. 

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The Spirit of Dancing.

Quote: There are many things in life that will catch your eye, but only a few will catch your heart...pursue those.

Recently, I've been went to few events. When I was watching the performances, it reminds me of dancing. My toes tapped after the tempo. I've been dancing since young.. Since kindergarten then during primary, my friends and I always did performance for Teacher's day and Children's Day. It continued to secondary and until my pre-U (Form 6). I don't dance in studio because I did not attend dancing class. It was just so random that I was involved to perform in few of the events. 

The most unforgettable one was during the dancing competition held in 2004. We have only one week to prepare and we practiced from morning to midnight in school. That time my school's girl guide troop was having camp in school. That's why we got the chance to practice until 1am in school. That was really crazy. We were so exhausted during that one week. 

I've not been dancing for almost one year. And seriously, I really miss it. How nice if I'm still continue my Ballet class. The feeling of dancing is just so... unexplainable. The fun part was when you are performing for an event; you get to dance with different people. Different songs, different steps, different sentiment. I might not the great dancer, but I enjoy every move of the step.

I've found one of the thing that catch my heart, and I am gonna pursue it. I wanna sign up for dancing class. But I need some time to do survey on it. I hope it works this time, although next sem I'm having 10subjects. 
Big task. =)

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A Lame Dinner

My sister's friend is going to New Zealand for 10 days with her family. So we are going to help her to take care of her silky terrier dog, Teddy. It's a male dog which is kinda desperate in mating with Bobo. Too bad Bobo was in the cage because she is having menstrual. Teddy is so smart that he actually managed to open the cage by himself. And thus we have to lock the cage up. I guess Bobo is jealous because she kept barking when we were playing with Teddy.

Teddy

Went to a buffet dinner organized by MCA Women Association. My mum has extra tickets, so I invited Chin, Suzanne and Mei Ling together. It supposed to start at 8pm. We reached at around 8.15pm. Crowded with people, majority uncles aunties. The food were all finished when we reached. We, and also the uncles aunties stood beside the table and waited for the food to be served. Wow.. all the uncles aunties were so cool, they were so skillful in grabbing food. Really salute them la. Then, what we got was just fried mihun with a lil of curry. This buffet was Rm30 per person, but we only ate ~Rm 5. Don't worth. And we were so hungry, so we went Mamak after the dinner.

This dinner is just so lame. We paid not for the food. We paid for the performances because I think we enjoyed the performance more. And I danced Cha-cha! =D

Random Note: I like floating balloons. 

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Beautiful Lies

For the past one month, I had said some beautiful lies. Lies.. it's just some words which are useless. I'm too naive for thinking that there is beautiful lies. No lie is beautiful. Making people feel better by telling lies is wrong. For the last one month, I faced conflicts and dilemmas. I've tried my best to convince people, to apologize, to .... Whatever I can do, I've already get it done. However, things doesn't get done like how I wished to. I never felt this weak before. I thought I am tough enough to keep it all by myself. I though I am tough enough to handle things by my own.

I tried to be someone else. I tried to change everything, but I'm not the God. People don't listen to me, they don't understand what am I thinking. The way they think and the way I'm thinking is so different. And that's how conflict arises. Explanation just makes things worse. People might feel that it's all excuses. But without explanation, things go even worse. They blame you for not being honest, blame you for hiding everything. I really got no idea. After all, all I did is just no point. Indeed, I blamed myself.

Thus, I thought a beautiful lie could make people feel better. But someone said, you need 1000 more lies to cover one lie. Ya, it's pretty true. A lie is still forever a lie. No matter how beautiful you make the lie into, it's still a lie. It's still a lie which hurts people deeper. I am not going to make any beautiful lies anymore. I am not going to make any explanation.

It's really hurt.

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Drama + Movies Marathon

I've done with ...

Beyond the Realm of Conscience 

2012

Ninja Assassin

Jump

The Storm Warriors

Zombieland

I'm now chasing..

Born Rich

A Chip of The Old Block

Beauty of The Game

More.. More.. More...! =.= 
Holiday is fun.

=p

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Refresh.

Supposed to be a happy day.
It ruined at the end because of some random few words.
How powerful can words be?
How much can someone influence you?

I never thought that I'l watch those battle fighting movie. Instead, I prefer to watch comedy love horror movie. Those battle movie is totally out of my choice. I actually fell asleep when I watched Initial D in cinema few years ago. But it's surprising that now I actually enjoy watching those fighting movies like Ninja Assassin, Gamer, Storm Warriors etc. Things are changing, so do I.

I never thought that those words which are meaningless to you, mean a lot to others. I said something which I don't even realize that I said it. But who knows that particular words eventually is the cause of the war. For me, it was a very small matter. No idea.

Okay, ignore my emo-ness.
Outtie.

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I'm Tired

I’m tired of being misunderstood

nerves are shot,

weak – like old wood.

I’m tired of being ill,

no energy, can’t think,

 losing my skills.I’m tired of trying to make things right,

  i give up – I surrender,

no will to fight.

I’m tired of seeing others in pain,

raises frustration,

drives me insane.

I’m tired of not being able to cry,

i’d melt away,

 nothing left inside.

I’m tired because I can’t feel,

 walking in a daze – numb

this can’t be real.

I’m tired of being “strong,”

i’m weak, i’m fragile,

its gone on way to long.

I don’t know what else to say,

 i’m hoping, i’m dreaming,

i’m begging, i’m pleading,

please, take this feeling away.

Right now… I’m just tired…

by Dave Harm

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Life can be confusing.

Dilemma dilemma dilemma. Yes, so many things are running in my mind now. I've been facing and fighting with it for the past few weeks. I thought I can face it all by myself, but somehow, it almost makes me collapse. You can see sometimes I'm emo. haha.. Plus it was the exam week.. stress + emo. The feeling is just not good.


I don't share my things with my friends, I mean personal problems. I don't know why. I chose to kept it by myself because I believed that I can handle it. But, hypothesis is proven unacceptable. I'm just not as tough as I think. I do fall too. And I finally chose to share it and had some "heart-talk". Although there were arguments, depressions, misunderstood etc, but it's not that bad i think. 


When you shared your problems with people, it actually helps! I gained trust, support, advices and encouragements. Trust is the one that I need the most. One trust is more than enough. By sharing, I got different ideas, different opinions which make me think differently from different angle. I've grown up. I am thinking maturely, i must think maturely! 


Right now, i know I'm still stuck in this situation. I can't go anywhere. Indeed, I'm the one who should take up the responsibilities. No blames. Can't avoid. But I don't know what to do.


Time can change everything. Is that true?
Appreciate everything before it's too late.

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You Guys.

Time really flies.

There goes our 4 months.

Congrats to those who have finished their exam. I'm having my last paper this Saturday.

Bye Bye Sem 1.

Maths - Dr Wang

English & Communication - Ms Andal

Moral - Mr Devendran

BioChem - Ms Pavalam

How she used to sit with me everyday.
How we used to talk, gossip and laugh together.

How we used to hang out together.
How we used to have plenty of things to talk and chat and laugh.
How we used to "boom" each other.
How you guys cheer me up.
How nice to see you smile everyday (Jane)
How tension you are during exam and assignment (Ashley)
How nice of you in helping me (Eugene)
How pity u are when you used to be the drive, your car kena bang & u waited for me after class (JY)
How pity u are when you used to get "boom" by us (Steven)
How fantastic is it.
Just love hanging around with you guys.

How they used to made the classmates laugh.

How they used to "zat" me.

How you used to be so annoying and childish, but u are still the kind one (Kwen)

How you used to be so "selamba" but still managed to get ur job done on time (Ben)

How you used to be so "perasan" until sometimes I also can't tahan (Tommy)

How nice of you to share every nice food with us (Fiona)

How you used to help the class and lecturers (Leong)

How special is your reaction, the way you talk. U are the youngest (Elaine)

How you used to call my chinese name and we named us as the rapper (Jimmy)

How you used to study for the whole day and looked so tired (Lih Yun)

How you used to looked so blur sometimes (Samantha)

NIO 4th Batch Sem 1.

See you guys next year. =)

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