Runaway to Gold Coast

Planning a future vacation is a motivation.
A motivation for me to work harder, earn more.
I am just an ordinary girl, who love to travel all around the world.
He said, let's plan another trip. And I smiled.

A runaway from hectic work,

Finish up all my annual leaves (I left 2 days AL this year T.T),

Spending time with his family, 

Spent all my Ringgit Malaysia,

Stayed in a harmony town,

Hugged a Koala bear, 

Said Hi to Kangaroo,

Caught a fish for the first time in my life,

Honeymoon with boyfriend.

It was so so so awesome.

Why time runs so fast when I'm happy?
5 days spent in Gold Coast, Australia is just not enough for me.
Throw my iPhone asides, skip away from my work.
Beautiful moments meant to be remember.
The time passed so fast, making me value the time I spent.
The people, the scenery, the sea, the wind, the theme park, the foods.

Just a 2 hours of difference from Malaysia,
Even I am back to Malaysia, I am still used to waking up at 5am and feeling sleepy at 10pm.
It goes on and on.

I wish I could turn back time and stop it.
I miss everything in Australia.

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我，一点都不坚强。

很久没写部落格了
或许是因为laptop被病毒侵犯了
也或许是自己变懒了
往往有很多事总在我脑海里围绕
但却不想把它给挖出来。

其实 原来 我一点都不坚强。
现在的我 不再爱把所有的事都分享出来
把自己装的那样坚强
把自己感想深埋着
别人对我做的 说的；
我没反击，我沉默。

你总爱讲我
总爱在大众 部落格里说我
对你，我可能不是个全职女友。
我一直都把所有 所有 藏在心里。
我一直都想做你的好女人。

你的不信任 你的怀疑
我没责怪 我没反抗
我尽量更改
你不喜欢的 你不给的； 我也不会去做了。
但是，
原来事实改变不了。
这一天，这一刻，
你也保持着你一样的态度。

我，这位一点也再不想伪装的女孩；
仰望，把泪水擦掉。
深呼吸
我。。心想。。我好笨。
我不想这样了。

没有了一丝笑容
我淡然的 望着窗外。
你再说的 做的
我暂时听不进。
我的心真的好痛。
因为我做的 真的尽力了
为什么你。。这样对我。

男人, 不要让爱你的女人沉默。
因为沉默是女人无声无泪的哭泣。
如果有一天你的女人；
她不再对你撒娇，
她不再对你任性，
她不再缠着你跟你要这个要那个，
她不再因为你的任何事情微笑或者皱眉。。

我已无力面对你一问再问
我已无力证明心有多诚恳
你要的我都学不会
为你伤悲　为你憔悴
我真的好累

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心，好痛。

在这一刻
我的心 好痛， 好痛
原来，我是撑得那么辛苦。

该做的已做
该避的已避
我到底还能做什么？

我可以放弃 我喜欢的
我可以什么都不要
为什么你不给我机会
为什么你不给我信任
为什么
为什么你总爱把事情反映出来

我真的累了
不是你的错
这全是我的错，是我的错。

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原来

或许，他说得没错。
其实我也相信因果
因又称因缘，果又称果报。
因和果辗转相生，谓之因果报应。
但其实，请别在我面前勾起回忆。

或许，我做错了。
错在当初没坦白
错在心太软 耳太轻
但其实，我以为我可以一个面对。

最痛最疼的；
不是误会 不是争吵
而是少了信任
多了心里一直以来藏下的疤。
当初做的决定，我从来没后悔
但那条疤依然被刻在心上。
原来我在他心目中，不过如此。

曾经付出的
我从不计较
都是一厢情愿 甘心

谢谢
让我知道她在他心目中的地位
原来，他没曾忘记
原来。。

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我恨你
我恨你

你怎么可以那么的不成熟

我恨你！

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苦中一點甜

以前上大學，

只要不舒服就可以自己ambil cuti sendiri。

根本就不用理會功課。

然後回家去，躺在床上休息。

現在上了班，

就算不舒服也得撐著，

忍著，還要微笑面對病人；

繼續把手頭上的工作做完。

的卻好辛苦。

面部蒼白，冒冷汗。

還要在不對的時間，不舒服！

但是

不同的是；

因爲公司有藥房，所以就算不舒服也不用怕沒葯吃。

不同的是；

因爲公司有好同事，所以就算再忙，他們都讓我休息。

還特地買了杯hot chocolate給我。

還一直叮嚀我早點放工。

我有一班好‘ 愛吃’ 的同事。
做了那麽久，我就吃了那麽久。

再這樣下去，不變胖才怪呢！

其實，還蠻有口福的 :)

還有還有，我終于踏入手術室啦！

所以，

苦中，是有一點甜的。

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Bello Miss September

The long awaiting Phuket Graduation trip is finally over but it was awesome.

Phuket is a place full of Beaches and is a heaven of shopping.
With great accommodation accompanied by loved one and good friends.

4 years. 4 years.
4 years of uni life finally came to an end.
Every moment spent in Phuket were memorable.
The time when the girls gathered in a room and made a plan, the time when our gang gathered in one room every night chit-chat, applying aloe-Vera on each other, laughed and teased at each other.
Splendid moments.

I miss Phuket!

Bello bello! Come back come back.
September is here.

Which means it's time to work seriously, full timely. 

No more holiday so far.
It's a busy month full of training.

Okay, I'm ready...

Glad for having you being my side all the time.

Even I just see you for 5 minutes, it makes my whole day better.

We're still fighting for the future. And eventually, it makes us stronger.

Holding tight.

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Working Life

After stepping into working life;
Seriously, I am really exhausted.
Once the clock tick at 11 o'clock, I am feeling sleepy ady.
But good thing is, I sleep earlier, wake up earlier.
A good habit.

After stepping into working life;
I couldn't adapt to the working environment for the first few days.
It's not that the colleagues are not friendly but is me myself that I feel lonely.
Because there is no longer soul-mates to talk to like how I used to have in university.
But good thing is, I learnt to be more independent.
A good learn.

After stepping into working life;
I looked back to my university life.
Realizing how much I wished to turn back time.
I hoped to go back to study life because working is a total different life.
But good thing is, I face different challenges everyday.
A good thing.

After stepping into working life;
I know everything is on my own now.
I play an important role in the company because I'm the only one holding the position.
But good thing is, I managed to consult them and educate them in my own way.
Talking to them in my own room, without anyone supervising nor disturbing.
I feel happy talking to patients and increase their awareness of a particular condition.
A good job.

Actually, there are more for me to learn after stepping into working life.
I have to stand strong.
As I always have in my mind, Tomorrow will be a better day.
Feeling greatful. gladful. wonderful.
Hopefully.

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Turning Point

Finally, the 4 years of Bachelor study is finally over.
A time that I had been waiting for.
I know I will be definitely miss study life but No No No;
My schooling may be over but my education still continues.
Graduation is just a process.

It's the turning point.
A turn point for me to step forwards,
To face another chapter of life.
A new chapter of life,
With new job, new friends, new environment.
There are plenty of challenges ahead of me.
Yet, I'm pretty excited for it.

Hey darling
Let's face the challenge together and get it move.
One day, our plan will succeed.
Take the experience first, cash will come later :)

Promises.

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寧靜的夜晚

好久沒寫部落格了。

上到大學的最後一年，該是輕鬆的一年，

卻少了更新。

這個禮拜好忙好忙

我好不容易才能在這夜晚呼的口氣

今天這夜晚，顯得特別孤單，寂寞。

卻想一個人呆著。

一直以來，

我都好想快點畢業，我真的好想離開這大學。

不是我討厭它，畢竟它的卻給了我不少回憶。

但。。

我還是會害怕；

害怕這4年的結束會帶來我不想要的改變。

我會害怕改變

因爲冷血的我一旦接觸了變化，

我可以把它轉移到工作學業上去融入。

我是個工作狂，

我可以從早忙到晚，如此的過一天。

其實

壽命的長短不是生命最重要的關鍵，

如何把握有限的生命，活出真我，才是對自己最好的交代。

很多歡樂的時光是買不回來的，

珍惜當下，做最有意義的事，

才是我應該努力的。

這樣，才不光費人生。

有很多很多的事，

原來不必去執著。

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After-All

Aloha, I'm back!
Sorry my dear bloggie, I've been neglecting you for 2 months.
I was too busy with reports, examinations, sister's wedding & class trip.
After all, everything's ended.

 I'm done with my final examination. It was really a hectic one.
It's true that we shouldn't judge its book by its cover.
Things aren't appear the same anymore.
And now I realized, selfish people will only come to you when they need something.
Grade, is just an alphabet.
 Most importantly: A lesson, I learnt.

My elder sister got married!
And the day itself I had my last practical test.
I don't think I did my test fantastically, but I don't care! Muahaha!
We had been preparing a lot for her wedding.
Printing invitation cards, cleaning the house, arranging the tables.
Kelam-kabut during the dinner but still, we survived.
Of course, thanks to my darling & relatives for being there whenever we need help.
Appreciate appreciate.

And lastly, our class trip..
Finally, I been to Singapore.
It was a successful one.
The timing was right, the weather was nice, the human traffic was acceptable & some people brought laughter. ;)
Thank you Elaine & her kind family for the hospitality.
The seafood is really marvelous!

Of all, it's 2013 now.
This year will be different as I am no longer stepping into college.
Soon, I'll be walking out and work like an adult.
I'm excited, as well I'll miss my university life. Not the university.

I shall say, I'm happy with all I have.

My family, my darling, my friends and some jokers. 

A late wish, but still: Happie New Year 2013 poeple!
My final semester is starting tomorrow but,
CNY is around the corner! ;)

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October, His birthday.

October,
We had a lovely birthday celebration with his and my family.
I baked a fruit cake and delivered to his house early in the morning 6 am.
Aw, I'm good in time management. ;P

For the first time, we had Korean foods.
Evil me forced him to bring me for Sing K even though he refused. Teehee. He wouldn't know my siblings were waiting inside the room. I hope he didn't know ;)
It was a birthday bash.

At night, finally my cake can be presented.
He didn't know the cake was baked by me until his mother told him so.
Mm, the taste may not be that nice but I did put a a lot of effort baking it. :(
Baking the cake until midnight and 3 hours of sleep.
I hope I surprised you.

I hope I make your birthday one to remember.

I should wish you here, Happy Birthday love.

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我好幸福

其实我很幸福
我不愁食，也不忧财
有什么想要的，我可以刷卡，但我不会
我有不舍得买的，我亲爱的会坚持送给我

其实我们蛮神经质
我们总是那么的疯狂：
可以不理别人的哈哈大笑
有时只活在两人世界里
累了就一起像猪酱在车里睡着
逛街可以现买现穿
我们很厉害精算，用最少的钱吃最好吃的
就算再忙都能忙里偷闲
日子就是那么的逍遥自在

虽然偶尔会争吵
会意见不合
会不悦你
但其实我是很疼你的啦
*我现在好像捏你啊！*
嘻嘻

我怎麽那样幸福

还记得吗

我曾说过，

有你真好

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THANK YOU.

Why must disappointment be a part of life?

Stop torturing me.
Please don't tell me that you will come over but instead for the whole day you never contact me, and I have to found out that you were with your boy and girl friends.
It's okay if you don't message me for the whole day, because you said too much of sms is not so good.
It's okay f you are not coming over, because I told you no need to travel over.
But I'm too stupid to send you a message wishing you to have a good day even though you never contact me.
It's too stupid for not angry with you because you did not reply.
I'm so stupid to find out that you did not reply because you were with ur friends, and I know nothing about it.
I'm too stupid to find excuses for what you've done.

This is not the first time.
Since the first day, I've already knew that I'm not comparable with your friends.
Who am I to to you. I got the answer in my mind.

I will not be the stupid girl, anymore.
Thank you miserable life.

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A Never Ending Story

It has been a long time since my last post huh.
My year 3 has ended last month, and due to my laziness and "busyness", I don't manage to blog anything about it.
Semester 6, considered as a quite stressful semester as we have to complete our dissertation. No one knows how much efforts and tears you put for it.
Then I met a cheerful and cute boy as my patient. From being a pirate to twinkle twinkle little star. Funny max.
I have 3 weeks of semester break, which is going to end this week.
Still, I'm glad that I managed to get my things done during the break, even though I don't get to go for any vacation / shopping. Or at least, Genting with classmates.

Next week - the time I step into my final year.
The feeling at first was I hope the time pass slower because I would like to enjoy the break. But now, I wished the time comes faster. Maybe, I used to get busy, maybe I don't like the feeling of doing nothing.

I hate the feeling of not being appreciated.
Although not a single words are voice out, although you have already used to live the way you are.. But girls do need some kind of appreciation and care. You might think that a simple one is more than enough, but do you ever think of what she wants and needs?
It is very difficult for her to accept that she is being neglected, especially when she is beside of you.
Or you don't come to meet nor lead her when she came to a place nearby you.

Sometimes, you have to stop doing something when it is an expectation rather than an appreciation.

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