THANK YOU.

Why must disappointment be a part of life?

Stop torturing me.
Please don't tell me that you will come over but instead for the whole day you never contact me, and I have to found out that you were with your boy and girl friends.
It's okay if you don't message me for the whole day, because you said too much of sms is not so good.
It's okay f you are not coming over, because I told you no need to travel over.
But I'm too stupid to send you a message wishing you to have a good day even though you never contact me.
It's too stupid for not angry with you because you did not reply.
I'm so stupid to find out that you did not reply because you were with ur friends, and I know nothing about it.
I'm too stupid to find excuses for what you've done.

This is not the first time.
Since the first day, I've already knew that I'm not comparable with your friends.
Who am I to to you. I got the answer in my mind.

I will not be the stupid girl, anymore.
Thank you miserable life.

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A Never Ending Story

It has been a long time since my last post huh.
My year 3 has ended last month, and due to my laziness and "busyness", I don't manage to blog anything about it.
Semester 6, considered as a quite stressful semester as we have to complete our dissertation. No one knows how much efforts and tears you put for it.
Then I met a cheerful and cute boy as my patient. From being a pirate to twinkle twinkle little star. Funny max.
I have 3 weeks of semester break, which is going to end this week.
Still, I'm glad that I managed to get my things done during the break, even though I don't get to go for any vacation / shopping. Or at least, Genting with classmates.

Next week - the time I step into my final year.
The feeling at first was I hope the time pass slower because I would like to enjoy the break. But now, I wished the time comes faster. Maybe, I used to get busy, maybe I don't like the feeling of doing nothing.

I hate the feeling of not being appreciated.
Although not a single words are voice out, although you have already used to live the way you are.. But girls do need some kind of appreciation and care. You might think that a simple one is more than enough, but do you ever think of what she wants and needs?
It is very difficult for her to accept that she is being neglected, especially when she is beside of you.
Or you don't come to meet nor lead her when she came to a place nearby you.

Sometimes, you have to stop doing something when it is an expectation rather than an appreciation.

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