Hey

One week of working.

At first, it was so boring and the time passed so slow. But as time goes, as I got to mingle around with my colleagues, I can see the fun there.

They started to teach me lots of things, from picking up the phones, making appointment, writing reports and instrument knowledge.

I believe, I will not regret working there, with bunch of good colleagues, even though sometimes they don't talk to me. :(

Fyp,

As a reminder, 

One day I will settle you off! 

You made me suffered so much! 

And ya, that 'girl'.

At least, she not just a girl who are waiting to meet him on any day.

They have their own life and own work now.

That's how things go now. Taking leave to have fun with his friends but not with her.

It's alright, as she always tell herself.

Because, she will be stronger than him. She can drown herself in work, so that nobody will ever disturb him.

It's alright that no one is beside her when she is down.

When she cried, when she feels lonely, when her nose bleed, when she need someone to talk to.

Thanks to him, for making her more independent, so that she won't rely on him that much.

No worries, she will never cry again just because of not meeting each other. 

Maybe this is what the girl deserves.

hey Girl, it's alright.

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Say Hi to 2012!

Hello 2012!
It's a brand new year, my first post of 2012.

Before welcoming 2012, I would like to say thanks to 2011 for giving me lots of ups and downs that make me stronger.
Thanks to 2011 for giving me such a wonderful love stories.
Thanks to 2011 for giving me such a unforgettable birthday. With sadness and happiness as well.

With my love, with grandma, with family and relatives.

The wonderful lunch.

My Grandma.

Lovely surprise from siblings.

Once again, Happy birthday to me.

When it comes to new year, I bet most of the people are talking about their resolution.

I never have any resolution, and this year, for the first time.
My resolution:
1. To work once I'm free
2. To get a smart phone
3. To treat my love one - a big meal with my salary
4. Go for a photo shot (wanted for this since 2 years ago, :'( )
5. Go for a vacation with my love one
6. Maintain my weight at 40kg or lesser.
7. Praise by my fyp supervisor
That's what I thought of. Will be adding it if I think of any.

And let's see whether these could be fulfill by the end of 2012.
2012, be a good year okay?

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12月的最后一天

这是12月的最后一天。
如果你认识我，你应该知道今天是什么日子。

这是12月的最后一天。
如果你家有日历，那你应该知道明天是新的一年。

这一年就快过去了。
这一年，我又做了什么呢？
这一年，我接受了一份爱情。
这一年，我把我头发减短了。
这一年，我把我头发给染了。
这一年。。我不想写下去了。

12月的最后一天
我应该是开心的
但我哭了。
在夜深里，我是寂寞的。
我第一次，寂寞得哭了。

明年，你快点来。
我要做工，我要忙得一团糟。

晚安了。

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我的伪装

眼泪，在这几天都流了无数遍。

伪装，真的不容易。
我的伪装，是彻底的是失败。
以为可以潇洒的说：无所谓，
以为可以擦掉眼泪说：没关系。

有了期待，就会有失望。
原来一次次的等待，最终还是换来失望。
天真的以为，一个小小的要求与等待，很快就被实现。
天真的以为，时间的快速旋转，会隐藏着一些儿的喜悦。

原来我并不是你理想的小鸟依人，
不好意思，让你失望了。
其实，真的没什么大不了，也不是什么大事。
就让我这ordinary girl 发下公主病吧。

放心，再也不会有这样的事。
很多事，我放下了。
不是说没了期待，该说是以顺其自然的心去对待。

以后的，我都有了心里准备，
所以，不需要什么陪伴了。
简单的一句话就够了，真的。

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什么都不是

不是从没珍惜，

也不是不爱了。

或许，彼此相爱的方式都不同了。

要的，也不再像当初的那么单纯。

对，

请你不要再宠了，

如果你要，

也可以不爱了。

都不值得了，不是吗？

对自己，

对那莫名奇妙的脾气，

对那缺乏的安全感，

对那完美主义的要求，

对那突然降临的伤感，

对那黑色的严肃，

对所有所有的事。。

也只能说；

疲惫了。

她眼泪很多，只是她不愿流露悲伤的情绪。

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BuhBye Sem 5!

Without realizing, its the end of 2011.
So fast, everything happened in a blink.
I've done with my Semester 5. It a semester that made me feel so stress but time flies so fast during this sem.

Semester 5,
The first time we have clinical posting with doctors, optometrists, pharmacist and real patients;
The first time we got the final year project;
The first time we struggled so much for the thesis proposal;
The first time we had our first NIOS annual dinner;
The first time we had our clinical examination with real patients and medical officers;
The first time we did our case presentation.

First time of drinking red wine.

NIOS first annual dinner. The girls.

The only one 21st birthday celebration.

We did everything for the first time this semester.
Whatever is it, it ends.
This time, we have 2 months of holiday! For the first time too!
Till end of February. Real long. :)

Urgh. I been too busy and tired recently.
Time for some rest.
Awaiting for the next day!

P/s: 12 days more. If  you know what I mean. Haha! :P

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In A Mess

Urgh, I got a big ulcer on my lips. Real huge i mean.
I've been suffering from it for the past few days. And sometimes I really feel like screaming it out. It caused so much pain to me. I feel like crying for help.
I can't talk, I can't eat, I can't even drink water!

My house is in a big mess.
Renovation is going on at the front and back of my house. But good thing is the kitchen will be wider now :)
Bad thing is, at 8am sharp, you can hear the 'drilling' sound. A very effective alarm.

Girls need more cares and attention.
If she never stops you from socialization, then please don't make her feel that friends overtake her position.
If you made her lost her self-confidence, she lost herself too.
And she knows, she is a nobody, again.

Even though everything look stable and smooth now
but sometimes it requires more cares and some appreciation.
It's not a necessary for someone to treat you good.
But when people treat you good, you tends to forget how to appreciate.


Okay, I have a tired life.
Been so stressful for the past month. Don't even have a chance to chillax myself by doing things i love.
Been a long time since i last shopping, movie, sing k, sports, desserts, travel, gathering with friends blablablah...

Hectic life. I should get a life.

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December

So fast!
It's the last month of 2011, indicating my final examination too.
I don't like examination.

The one week of study week seems not enough :'(

Tomorrow, I'll be fighting on the war using my pens, the papers are my biggest enemy.
I MUST WIN! Argh!

Okay. Chaos.

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My Dear Supervisor

The project is killing me softly.
The biggest fear and the major concern is about my supervisor, not the presentation.
He makes me to love him, but afraid of him at the same time.

My dear supervisor,
How much I hope you can hear me.
The pain, the depression.
You are killing me, softly.

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故事 1

那个女人
是有点固执
是有点野蛮
是有点坏脾气

但她其实要的并不多
只要一点点的温柔
只要一点点的安慰
只要一点点的关怀

她尽力把自己的角色演好
那一天，她尽心尽力
那一天，她耗费一天
陪他度过

她这个女人算合格吗
他忙，她也一起忙
不要求回报，真的不要求
只为了他一个微笑

即使他很忙
即使她不认识他身边的人
即使她一个人
还是得压抑心情，
用微笑隐藏寂寞。

为什么简单的一个要求
他不能给
为什么简单的一个要求
他要拒绝

或许没有人能够理解
那要求有什么那么重要
有什么大不了

是不重要
只是心里在作怪
没有了安全感
没有了肯定
或许，她只是个 nobody。

伤心不是因为失望
生气不是因为妒忌
没有什么大不了。

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不想理

原来人是自私的

人总是在缠绵后抱怨对方的缺陷

放下，或许是好的。

把自尊心，原则都扔到一边；

从心底远离，然后假装什么都不知道，

就这样，算了吧。

你所做的，说的

我都不会放在心里了

不想重复一遍又一遍。

就如你说，

我就是小气，

我就是肥，

又如何！？ 又怎样？

有必要一直重复吗？

下雨了，

此刻的心情就像雨一样；

时大时小；

令人觉得伤感即无奈。

Ｐ／Ｓ：我要做回我自己！我是快乐的！

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很多 很多

很多事情 不是谁说了就算

即使伤心 结果还是自己担

多少次失望表示着多少期盼

事实证明 幸福很难。

简单的词语，意味着生活里的每一个细节

生活态度不一样的人，如何可以和平相处？

说话态度很重要，很多话应该经过思考而弹出。

态度直率不是一个借口。

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我 Smurf

在我快乐或不快乐时，

会有她，有你陪我度过。

其实我的快乐，是属于你的。

那傻傻的男人，是属于我的。

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Short Updates.

This semester is superb tiring and busy.
Busy with reports, posting, thesis, clinics and classes.
From 8.30am to 5.30pm everyday.
Meeting doctors and patients, tones of reports to be completed, examinations, completing proposal for our thesis research , bla bla bla.
Even 8 hours of sleep is not sufficient for me.
Does what Yvonne said was right? : "At a particular age, u'll feel tired easily."
Urgh.

There are too many things that couldn't be express by words.
If you would like to say things have changed, i will say no.
You can't expect people to think the same as you, or to do the things you desired.
Its just that things require maturity, peace, harmony ways of handling.
Throwing away emotions, I know we care for each other, still.

Tired.

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静思

最近真的是忙到爆炸。
假期里不是赶 assignments , 就是忙顾 cousins, 还有堂姐的 wedding。
假期完了，依然赶着 assignment, 还有 reports。
所以学会了 “忙里偷闲” 的道理。
在忙里，偶而会去看看戏，在家乱唱 k，还有吃好料来宠爱自己。
这样才算是充实的生活！

从中，我领悟了很多东西。
比如说， 好人难做。
无论你多好心，别人不一定会感激你。
反而可能会在你不留意时伤害了你。
虽然是蛮失望的，不过我还是会选择做个好人，
但会是聪明的好人，不再被欺负的好人。
我的快乐不是因为我拥有得多，而是我计较得少。

还有，
期望越大，失望就越大。
就算是你爱的人也会丢失你的期望。
诺言，可能根本就没有。

世上没有谁不能没有谁。
没有会是谁的全部。
一个游戏，可能会胜出于你。
但世上，没有你不爱的人，
没有你不信任的人，
也没有你不原谅的人。

在一段时间里，若同样的事情一直发生，久了以后，会变成理所当然。
别人对你的好不是应该的。
但若别人一直对你不好，你仿佛看开了。
因为，你麻木了。
不再对他所做的放在心里了。

嗯，牢记。
对了，中秋节快乐。

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