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Hey

2012-01-07T19:13:00.001+08:00

One week of working.

At first, it was so boring and the time passed so slow. But as time goes, as I got to mingle around with my colleagues, I can see the fun there.

They started to teach me lots of things, from picking up the phones, making appointment, writing reports and instrument knowledge.

I believe, I will not regret working there, with bunch of good colleagues, even though sometimes they don't talk to me. :(

Fyp,

As a reminder,

One day I will settle you off!

You made me suffered so much!

And ya, that 'girl'.

At least, she not just a girl who are waiting to meet him on any day.

They have their own life and own work now.

That's how things go now. Taking leave to have fun with his friends but not with her.

It's alright, as she always tell herself.

Because, she will be stronger than him. She can drown herself in work, so that nobody will ever disturb him.

It's alright that no one is beside her when she is down.

When she cried, when she feels lonely, when her nose bleed, when she need someone to talk to.

Thanks to him, for making her more independent, so that she won't rely on him that much.

No worries, she will never cry again just because of not meeting each other.

Maybe this is what the girl deserves.

hey Girl, it's alright.

Say Hi to 2012!

2012-01-01T23:05:00.000+08:00

Hello 2012!
It's a brand new year, my first post of 2012.

Before welcoming 2012, I would like to say thanks to 2011 for giving me lots of ups and downs that make me stronger.
Thanks to 2011 for giving me such a wonderful love stories.
Thanks to 2011 for giving me such a unforgettable birthday. With sadness and happiness as well.

With my love, with grandma, with family and relatives.

The wonderful lunch.

My Grandma.

Lovely surprise from siblings.

Once again, Happy birthday to me.

When it comes to new year, I bet most of the people are talking about their resolution.

I never have any resolution, and this year, for the first time.
My resolution:
1. To work once I'm free
2. To get a smart phone
3. To treat my love one - a big meal with my salary
4. Go for a photo shot (wanted for this since 2 years ago, :'( )
5. Go for a vacation with my love one
6. Maintain my weight at 40kg or lesser.
7. Praise by my fyp supervisor
That's what I thought of. Will be adding it if I think of any.

And let's see whether these could be fulfill by the end of 2012.
2012, be a good year okay?

12月的最后一天

2011-12-31T00:47:00.000+08:00

这是12月的最后一天。
如果你认识我，你应该知道今天是什么日子。

这是12月的最后一天。
如果你家有日历，那你应该知道明天是新的一年。

这一年就快过去了。
这一年，我又做了什么呢？
这一年，我接受了一份爱情。
这一年，我把我头发减短了。
这一年，我把我头发给染了。
这一年。。我不想写下去了。

12月的最后一天
我应该是开心的
但我哭了。
在夜深里，我是寂寞的。
我第一次，寂寞得哭了。

明年，你快点来。
我要做工，我要忙得一团糟。

晚安了。

我的伪装

2011-12-22T01:58:00.000+08:00

眼泪，在这几天都流了无数遍。

伪装，真的不容易。
我的伪装，是彻底的是失败。
以为可以潇洒的说：无所谓，
以为可以擦掉眼泪说：没关系。

有了期待，就会有失望。
原来一次次的等待，最终还是换来失望。
天真的以为，一个小小的要求与等待，很快就被实现。
天真的以为，时间的快速旋转，会隐藏着一些儿的喜悦。

原来我并不是你理想的小鸟依人，
不好意思，让你失望了。
其实，真的没什么大不了，也不是什么大事。
就让我这ordinary girl 发下公主病吧。

放心，再也不会有这样的事。
很多事，我放下了。
不是说没了期待，该说是以顺其自然的心去对待。

以后的，我都有了心里准备，
所以，不需要什么陪伴了。
简单的一句话就够了，真的。

什么都不是

2011-12-19T21:26:00.000+08:00

不是从没珍惜，

也不是不爱了。

或许，彼此相爱的方式都不同了。

要的，也不再像当初的那么单纯。

对，

请你不要再宠了，

如果你要，

也可以不爱了。

都不值得了，不是吗？

对自己，

对那莫名奇妙的脾气，

对那缺乏的安全感，

对那完美主义的要求，

对那突然降临的伤感，

对那黑色的严肃，

对所有所有的事。。

也只能说；

疲惫了。

她眼泪很多，只是她不愿流露悲伤的情绪。

BuhBye Sem 5!

2011-12-19T00:17:00.000+08:00

Without realizing, its the end of 2011.
So fast, everything happened in a blink.
I've done with my Semester 5. It a semester that made me feel so stress but time flies so fast during this sem.

Semester 5,
The first time we have clinical posting with doctors, optometrists, pharmacist and real patients;
The first time we got the final year project;
The first time we struggled so much for the thesis proposal;
The first time we had our first NIOS annual dinner;
The first time we had our clinical examination with real patients and medical officers;
The first time we did our case presentation.

First time of drinking red wine.

NIOS first annual dinner. The girls.

The only one 21st birthday celebration.

We did everything for the first time this semester.
Whatever is it, it ends.
This time, we have 2 months of holiday! For the first time too!
Till end of February. Real long. :)

Urgh. I been too busy and tired recently.
Time for some rest.
Awaiting for the next day!

P/s: 12 days more. If you know what I mean. Haha! :P

In A Mess

2011-12-11T00:22:00.000+08:00

Urgh, I got a big ulcer on my lips. Real huge i mean.
I've been suffering from it for the past few days. And sometimes I really feel like screaming it out. It caused so much pain to me. I feel like crying for help.
I can't talk, I can't eat, I can't even drink water!

My house is in a big mess.
Renovation is going on at the front and back of my house. But good thing is the kitchen will be wider now :)
Bad thing is, at 8am sharp, you can hear the 'drilling' sound. A very effective alarm.

Girls need more cares and attention.
If she never stops you from socialization, then please don't make her feel that friends overtake her position.
If you made her lost her self-confidence, she lost herself too.
And she knows, she is a nobody, again.

Even though everything look stable and smooth now
but sometimes it requires more cares and some appreciation.
It's not a necessary for someone to treat you good.
But when people treat you good, you tends to forget how to appreciate.

Okay, I have a tired life.
Been so stressful for the past month. Don't even have a chance to chillax myself by doing things i love.
Been a long time since i last shopping, movie, sing k, sports, desserts, travel, gathering with friends blablablah...

Hectic life. I should get a life.

December

2011-12-04T21:38:00.000+08:00

So fast!
It's the last month of 2011, indicating my final examination too.
I don't like examination.

The one week of study week seems not enough :'(

Tomorrow, I'll be fighting on the war using my pens, the papers are my biggest enemy.
I MUST WIN! Argh!

Okay. Chaos.

My Dear Supervisor

2011-11-23T23:06:00.000+08:00

The project is killing me softly.
The biggest fear and the major concern is about my supervisor, not the presentation.
He makes me to love him, but afraid of him at the same time.

My dear supervisor,
How much I hope you can hear me.
The pain, the depression.
You are killing me, softly.

故事 1

2011-11-10T02:03:00.000+08:00

那个女人
是有点固执
是有点野蛮
是有点坏脾气

但她其实要的并不多
只要一点点的温柔
只要一点点的安慰
只要一点点的关怀

她尽力把自己的角色演好
那一天，她尽心尽力
那一天，她耗费一天
陪他度过

她这个女人算合格吗
他忙，她也一起忙
不要求回报，真的不要求
只为了他一个微笑

即使他很忙
即使她不认识他身边的人
即使她一个人
还是得压抑心情，
用微笑隐藏寂寞。

为什么简单的一个要求
他不能给
为什么简单的一个要求
他要拒绝

或许没有人能够理解
那要求有什么那么重要
有什么大不了

是不重要
只是心里在作怪
没有了安全感
没有了肯定
或许，她只是个 nobody。

伤心不是因为失望
生气不是因为妒忌
没有什么大不了。

不想理

2011-10-27T18:44:00.000+08:00

原来人是自私的

人总是在缠绵后抱怨对方的缺陷

放下，或许是好的。

把自尊心，原则都扔到一边；

从心底远离，然后假装什么都不知道，

就这样，算了吧。

你所做的，说的

我都不会放在心里了

不想重复一遍又一遍。

就如你说，

我就是小气，

我就是肥，

又如何！？又怎样？

有必要一直重复吗？

下雨了，

此刻的心情就像雨一样；

时大时小；

令人觉得伤感即无奈。

Ｐ／Ｓ：我要做回我自己！我是快乐的！

很多很多

2011-10-09T17:57:00.000+08:00

很多事情不是谁说了就算

即使伤心结果还是自己担

多少次失望表示着多少期盼

事实证明幸福很难。

简单的词语，意味着生活里的每一个细节

生活态度不一样的人，如何可以和平相处？

说话态度很重要，很多话应该经过思考而弹出。

态度直率不是一个借口。

我 Smurf

2011-09-29T22:31:00.000+08:00

在我快乐或不快乐时，

会有她，有你陪我度过。

其实我的快乐，是属于你的。

那傻傻的男人，是属于我的。

Short Updates.

2011-09-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

This semester is superb tiring and busy.
Busy with reports, posting, thesis, clinics and classes.
From 8.30am to 5.30pm everyday.
Meeting doctors and patients, tones of reports to be completed, examinations, completing proposal for our thesis research , bla bla bla.
Even 8 hours of sleep is not sufficient for me.
Does what Yvonne said was right? : "At a particular age, u'll feel tired easily."
Urgh.

There are too many things that couldn't be express by words.
If you would like to say things have changed, i will say no.
You can't expect people to think the same as you, or to do the things you desired.
Its just that things require maturity, peace, harmony ways of handling.
Throwing away emotions, I know we care for each other, still.

Tired.

静思

2011-09-12T00:43:00.001+08:00

最近真的是忙到爆炸。
假期里不是赶 assignments , 就是忙顾 cousins, 还有堂姐的 wedding。
假期完了，依然赶着 assignment, 还有 reports。
所以学会了 “忙里偷闲” 的道理。
在忙里，偶而会去看看戏，在家乱唱 k，还有吃好料来宠爱自己。
这样才算是充实的生活！

从中，我领悟了很多东西。
比如说，好人难做。
无论你多好心，别人不一定会感激你。
反而可能会在你不留意时伤害了你。
虽然是蛮失望的，不过我还是会选择做个好人，
但会是聪明的好人，不再被欺负的好人。
我的快乐不是因为我拥有得多，而是我计较得少。

还有，
期望越大，失望就越大。
就算是你爱的人也会丢失你的期望。
诺言，可能根本就没有。

世上没有谁不能没有谁。
没有会是谁的全部。
一个游戏，可能会胜出于你。
但世上，没有你不爱的人，
没有你不信任的人，
也没有你不原谅的人。

在一段时间里，若同样的事情一直发生，久了以后，会变成理所当然。
别人对你的好不是应该的。
但若别人一直对你不好，你仿佛看开了。
因为，你麻木了。
不再对他所做的放在心里了。

嗯，牢记。
对了，中秋节快乐。

No idea.

2011-08-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

The feeling right now is so complicated like cowsigjhrnivknikvnwi.
Readable but undefined.
I wish that we don't know each other, so that your life could be better.
Right now I feel so lost.
I hardly see our path clearly, and its getting blur.

Dharma Master Cheng Yen said,
Indifference is an obstacle of love;
when interacting with others,
be a little bit more courteous, more genuinely warm.

Rolling In Sabah ~

2011-08-19T23:42:00.002+08:00

My uni has started but I'm so so happy & satisfied with my life right now. I just came back from Sabah with my lovely NS girls. I skipped 2 days of classes for that. haha. It was a trip planned in the month of May and all of us had been waiting for the day for so long!

10th to 13th Aug.
7 of us, took the plane and reached KK airport at 12am midnight. Throughout the journey, Chloe, MeiMei & I chatted non-stop for 2 and a half hour in the plane. Other friends were complaining that we were too noisy. :P MeiMei was so careless as she forgot to bring her ic. She shouldn't get into the plane at LCCT but she was lucky enough because the guard checked only her license. At last, the guard of KK airport asked her to make a police report in order to stay in KK.

In the plane.

We met 2 of our KK friends who came to fetch us from airport. We had seafood porridge and deer dumpling as supper, at 1am. I felt so guilty because I have not eat supper for such a long time! Fat! Then we got into our Condotel (Likas Square Condotel). The condo is super nice and comfortable. I took the master room and shared with another 2 friends. We were real exhausted and I went to sleep at 3am.

Seafood Porridge

Likas Square Condotel.

Master Bedroom.

The next day we crawled up at 8am and grabbed breakfast at Fook Yuen Restaurant. Siew Siang came, so we have a total of 10 people altogether. We bought bread as breakfast and noodles for lunch. Then we headed to Sapi Island and Manukan Island for snorkeling and parasailing. Parasailing was awesome! We played in couple, where both of us will be fly up high, pulled by the ferry. I was really pity because the driver purposely 'throw' MeiMei and me into the sea. I was almost fully drowned by the sea. I can't breath! And the others were laughing at me. Grr. Worse was my safety belt came off when I was flying up high. I'm lucky that nothing happen on me, said by the ferry driver.
But seriously I love parasailing, expecially when you flew up high at the middle of the sea, so peacefully. Overall, each of us spent RM 98 at the island for activities. At night, we went for seafood for dinner and went to drink liang teh.

Sapi Island

Snorkeling

Parasailing

Dinner

Liang Teh session

Next day, on Friday, we woke up early to prepare egg mayo as breakfast. We headed to Kundasang that day. We rented two cars to go up hill. The journey up hill was so dangerous and there were few times we almost bang into the cars of opposite way. We had Tuaran mee for lunch and the girls prayed at temple before we started the journey. Unexpectedly, suppose to be 2 hours journey, but we reached in one hour. You can see we really speed all the way. Our first stop at Kundasang was Desa Cow Farm. The grass there is so greeeeen but it's smelly over there and lots of flies! Next stop was Poring Hot Spring. We actually wanted to do sauna but there is only one toilet so we decided to do 'leg sauna'.

Tuaran Mee

Kundasang

Desa Cow Farm

Poring Hot Spring

On our way to dinner, we nearly bang the cows because the street was too dark. The cows ignored us and crossed the road even we honked. Thanks god that we managed to skipped them but we really frightened up. We had our dinner and we bought KFC for supper. Haha. Again, fattening! Kundasang was so cooling at night and we were shivering for the whole night. I did not bring any jacket nor long pants, so I was freezing cold. Thanks to Samantha & MeiMei for the their shirts & pants. :) That night, we squeezed together and watched Korean entertainment show.

Rose Cabin Hotel

Saturday was our last day. I woke up early in the morning and snapped pictures of Kinabalu mountain. From the Balcony of our room, we can clearly see the whole mountain. The scene was so beautiful. We had maggie mee cup for breakfast. The hot soup warms us up in that cold weather. After checked out, we went Kinabalu Park for a walk. Nothing's much there but only muzium. Of course, we did what girls usually do - Self syok. We took so many pictures!

Mountain Kinabalu

Kinabalu Park

As we have to return the car at 12pm, we quickly headed back to the KK town. I was very happy because Zhao Wei went back to her house, and I got to meet her mother, who I misses so much. We hugged each other and I managed to take a pic with her. I don't know when will be the next time I gonna meet her. :'(

Zhao Wei's Mother

Our flight was at 6.55pm, so it was quite rush for us as we wanna buy some souvenirs before we went back. We get to bought things at Warisan and some Sabah foods at Tanjung Aru. Tanjung Aru reminds me lots of memories. 4 years ago I went there and we drew our names on the sand. Surprisingly, Ronny called me and he wanted to meet us. He came to find us with Jia Yung. But sadly, the girls don't really chat with the guys. We are just way too busy.

By me @ Tanjung Aru.

We reached KK airport at 6pm. We took pictures before we leave. I miss them real much, as I don't get to meet them often. We have been knowing each other for 4 years but nothing could separate all of us. We are still close. Chat, tease, laugh at each other. This trip was full of funs and a little bit of danger. And I will not forget, "Rolling In The Deep". A song that brings so many laughter, a song that I will not forget.

Bon voyage

Thanks to my beloved NS girls for coloring my life.

10 of us ♥

Chloe, WHY

Mei Nie

Zhao Wei

MeiMei, Chloe

Siew Sieng

Pei Meain

Tieng Tieng

♥ I love you girls. ♥

Liverpool Asia Tour 2011

2011-07-17T15:07:00.003+08:00

If you are a LFC Fans, you should know about Liverpool Asia Tour! Yesterday was Liverpool vs Malaysia, and of course as a Liverpool fans I would not want to miss the chance! Not to forget, thanks to my dar for treating me! Haha! :P

The match starting at 5.45pm but Bukit Jalil was jam terribly when I reached at 4.40pm. It's difficult to get a parking because the whole road was fully parked! Sadly, we parked so far and it took us 25minutes of walking to get into the Stadium.

Getting into the stadium.

Hot weather.

We got into the stadium just in time at 5.45pm! We were lucky enough because we found seats once we get into the stadium. There were thousand & thousands of people crowding at the stadium. If you see from far, the stadium is seems like in red, because everyone was in red! I'm in RED too! My face was in red too because of the sunburn! The sun was shinning "membara-bara" and I sweat a lot.

Look at the crowd!

Penalty time: Malaysia

Penalty time: Liverpool

The first half score was Malaysia XI 1-1 Liverpool. Before the second half started, we decided to change place. We been running from gate to gate to get a best seat but it's all FULL. Finally, we found only one seat, so he let me sit and he sit at the staircase. But at least we get a better view of the match sitting there!

Do you notice anything?

Spot the people?

The second half was superb! Malaysia XI scored another 2 whereas Liverpool scored another 5! The final result was Malaysia XI 3 - 6 Liverpool! Even though many were in red, but we did cheered for Malaysia! Overall, it was a good game and I really enjoyed watching!

Bee Sting

2011-07-15T00:15:00.001+08:00

I was happily playing at the playground, standing up high laughing. And suddenly I felt pain at my toe. I saw a bee stung on my toe! I tried to moved the bee away but it failed at the first time. Then again I used my hand to push it away.

Okay, it was real pain. I was screaming and someone was laughing over there, thinking that I might be kidding or what. Umm! Until he came beside me, saw the bee sting on my toe. He quickly helped me to withdraw the sting from my toe.

The sting looks like this, but this pic definitely not me!

I was really innocent. I din even disturb the bee or what. Instead, I din even saw it flying around. I was just standing there and it stung on my TOE. Weirdo.

My toe has a little swell and pain. Hopefully it will get better tomorrow.

This bee!

Tabur Hill

2011-07-13T23:56:00.000+08:00

Woke up at 3.45am and get ready for mountain climbing - Bukit Tabur, or more commonly known as Crystal Hill. Well, I'm not the earliest one. :D My eyes hardly opened that day, sleepy but couldn't sleep in the car.

Gathered with others at 5.30am, and we started our mountain climbing at 6am. It was dark out there and we have to use torch light to lead us the path. Each step of climbing was kinda tiring but the cooling windy weather made us feel so good. The trek was pretty easy as there are only small tree trunks.

We reached the resting place at the top of the mountain, and we had our biscuit there by looking at the scenery, waiting for sunrise. But there's too much of clouds blocking the sun. At that point, a great view of Tabur Hill and vista view of Kuala Lumpur was seen.

We continued our journey and we decided to finished up all the trek, even its tough and dangerous. We decided to took the tougher route. The route begins to get steeper and we have to scrabble over the rocks. I was lucky because someone prepared glove for me. :) There were few points that involved short rappelling spot. A rope is provided but it was quite dangerous for inexperience people as they might fall off the rope and get injured. The best example is myself where my hands could not bear with the weight of my body.

Later on, the climb became even steep as the rocks are almost vertical. Surprising I made it successfully. There was another peak that we need to descent using the provided rope. Ups and downs, we came across few ravines. And finally, we downhill. Downhill is never been easy because all you need is your "break" skill. My toes were injured and there were few times I almost slide off. The route was so slippery.

The rocks are almost vertical!

We had reached the bottom at around 11am. It was a great expenditure :)

Souvenirs I got: Pain @ muscles of shoulder, armpit & arm, injured @ toes, contusion @ hipbones.

When Lonely Strikes.

2011-07-09T22:40:00.000+08:00

Feeling like char kueh tiew + mihun goreng + nasi lemak + chapatti. Which means I am feeling uneasy, tired, jealous, lonely, sad bla bla bla.

Today I was alone, don't know where to go. I was so tired that I slept sitting on the bench. I thought all this while I was fine being alone, but today I was not. Nevermind, it's okay, I survived. ha ha Ha.

I'm so tired right now and I want to off to sleep now.

Nothing to think of, nothing.

I dislike the feeling of being neglected, as if the existence of you doesn't make any different. Keep telling herself : No one can't survive without you. Put it down.

P/s: Today is a memorable day for Malaysia due to BERSIH 2.0 Rally. Whatever is it, the fact is it's causing terrible jam all the ways. Making a U-turn in front of Pyramid and down to Federal Highway took me 1 hour 45mins. Thanks to who?

Life during Sem Break

2011-07-07T19:29:00.001+08:00

Semester 4 is ended! It's only one month holiday, which I don't think it's enough. I'm supposed to work for this one month but most of the companies are looking for full time. I received many calls but none of the job suit me. Never mind, at least I spent my holiday to the fullest so far.

I've been enjoying life since the first day of the holiday. I've done what I'm supposed to do, went lots of places for trip, makan, movies. Most importantly, I did my medical check-up finally, after dragging it for years. My blood vessel was inflammed after the blood test. My blood even spouts during the injection. Well, report was out and so far everything's alright. And I just had my Hepatitis B vaccination!

Went to Melacca and Port Dickson with bunch of great friends last weekends. We spent only 4 hours at Melacca and then we headed to Port dickson. It was such a waste that we don't get to eat the satay celup because the shop open at 5pm. Spending our evening at PD was superb. We started our funs with Banana Boat, Kayak and playing ball at the sea. It was my first time of playing Banana Boat, and to be honest, I seriously feeling afraid. But at the moment we dropped into the sea, we felt so good and wanted to be dropped few more times. :) Then the most romantic one is we sat on kayak and watched the sunset.

He got me a hat! :D

Nadeje Cake, a must eat in Melacca!

We had seafood for dinner. The Nyonya Fish taste delicious. After we get back to hotel, 6 of us gathered in a room and start playing cards. The guys finished up 5 tins of Carlsberg and girls helped to finished up the Shandy. During the game, all of us really laughed out loud, especially during the game of counting points. Some embarrassing thing happened on me, haha. :D It's just too funny and I really burst out laughing.

The next morning we went to the beach for football. I enjoying playing with the sea whereas the guys enjoyed kicking the ball. Then we left PD after had breakfast. We hang around at Snowflake and Jusco after we back from the trip. All of us were really exhausted.

Look at my 'art'.

Check-out!

Holidays left around 3 more weeks. I don't want to stay at home doing nothing. I shall keep enjoying life.. :)

两个人

2011-07-02T00:25:00.000+08:00

吵架时为什么会大声？原因是，当两个人相互愤怒的时候，他们的心和心相距很远；为了填补这段距离，他们必须呼喊，这样彼此才能听到。他们越是愤怒，心和心距离则越是遥远，于是，他们只有越发强力呼喊，他们彼此才能听到。反过来，也是恋爱时为什么喃喃低语的原因。

每个人都是上帝咬过一口的苹果，都是有缺陷的！所以，没有人是十全十美的。不要埋怨，因为你有的，别人未必会有。我们要知足。告诉自己：我是幸福的！

真正的爱情不在于你知道他有多好才要在一起；而是明知道他有太多的不好还是不愿离开。爱，就爱他的全部，欣赏他的好，包容他的缺。

我相信我们之间的感情就像织毛衣，建立的时候一针一线，小心而漫长，拆除的时候却只需轻轻一拉。很多时候，人在不觉中做了令别人不愉快的事。当你发现时，他可能已离去，那就太迟了。

女人的幸福在于：他真的爱我；男人的幸福在于：她值得他爱。其实女人要的很简单。无论你多忙，让她觉得你在乎她。

两个人吵架了，其实内心是想。。

别任性了。

Long long time ago.

2011-06-21T18:11:00.000+08:00

I miss my long hair. :'(

Pre-Examination Symptoms

2011-06-12T20:01:00.000+08:00

Right now I am feeling so complicated because of the final exam.
At first, I feel panic for not being panic.
Now, I am panic because I AM panic!

Sometimes I feel time is passing so slow, and its killing me softly.
Exam dragged for 2 weeks is kinda long. But thinking optimistically, it's a good thing.
I have no idea on what I am saying right now.

I seriously wanted to work hard like this ..

But I saw an article returned this:
'Don't work too hard, Nobody notices anyway.'

Life is kinda controversy right?

Okay, stop mumbling, back to BOOK!
All the best to you & me! :)

Have funs before the stress come.

2011-06-06T22:54:00.000+08:00

This week is supposed to be study week but one week seems not enough for me. Last few days I spent my time wisely before I really get into study mood, which I dislike the most. Urgh! I went to French Village for my very first time. That place was relaxing even though the weather is hot. I got my Liverpool jersey as a gift and a sheep! (A poor quality of sheep :p )

Also, I'm so proud with myself as I did my part to serve the people to raise their awareness about the importance of vision. It was my honor to have the opportunity to took part in this public's health campaign. Well, what I did was just to occlude their eyes and check for their vision. It's a simple procedure but all I achieved are more than that.

Talking, explaining, chilling with those uncles aunties and kids were kinda difficult at first but as it goes, things started to go smoothly. Throughout the whole procedure, I learned nothing for the skill of testing, but I gained satisfaction, joys that others will not understand.

I met so many kinds of people over there. I met one uncle that loss one of his vision due to glaucoma. He showed me his eye drops prescribed by the doctor. As I chatted with him, I felt sad and I hold my tears. We don't have much time to chat as there were others queuing behind. Or else I would have share with him my knowledge about glaucoma. Of course, I wouldn't forget the auntie that occluded her left eye with her own hand while I occluded her right eye. No wonder she told me that she can't see anything. When I realized about it, I burst out laughing.

Throughout the whole test, I felt so regret wearing high heels because I stood for 4 hours! Scarified to look nice and professional, and all I got is pain. Whatever it is, I don't feel tired at all. Instead, I enjoyed and I hope I can serve more people in the future. :)

Outtie. Wait me back at the end of June! 8-)

原来这叫做失望

2011-05-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

本来是有很多心事想分享的，但现在那灵感却没了。

是想说。。
最近觉得累了。
到底是累的感觉，还是感觉的累？
‘我在说些什么大便，我不晓得。’

原来当某些事的价值明显的降低，
并且低于自己所期望的，
就会产生失望感。
那。。我好像。。失望了。

那个傍晚我是多么难堪。

我像个傻瓜，默默的等待，

又看了看手机。

我是否该提醒你，‘你在哪里？’

很难过。

但我沉默不语，

平静了下来。

心，在眼泪落下的那一刻清撤明晰。

或许有一天，我会以冷眼看待心痛。

其实，
只要一个拥抱，
只要一个微笑，
就足以让我安慰。
这样，就够了。

如果你想留住一个人，
请你表达你的一些关心。
因为痛久了会变成一道疤痕。

心里话

2011-05-22T00:37:00.000+08:00

人，是不是要等到失去了才会珍惜?
往往会听到人埋怨；
为什么当初不对他/她好一点?
为什么看到别人对他/她好时，自己会有点不愉快?
为什么以前，我好像没为他/她撑伞过?
为什么我以前不带他/她想要去的地方?
什么都说：为什么，以前，如果。。
有用吗?
如果珍惜过，就算失去了，也不会有遗憾。

很想知道，世界最遥远的距离是多远?
有人说，是在一起却不知道对方对你的爱。
那路程远的定义呢?
几远才是远? 1 km? 100km? 1000km?
路是我们创闯的，那为什么人承担不了长途的爱?

其实，心里明明就是在意的。
但知你心的人，有多少?
在意，别人会说你不明白事理；
假装不在意，又过不了自己那关。

心再痛，又怎样?
再介意，再流泪，又怎样?
事实还是改变不了。
谁叫自己不争气?

算了，有些事情还是藏在心里好了。
不放太大期望，不拖累人，不麻烦人，就好了。
没事的。

This Week :)

2011-05-21T16:37:00.000+08:00

This week was superb. There were holidays and class ended earlier. And I managed to spent my time wisely and to the fullest!

Celebrated Swee Lee's 21st Birthday in Restaurant and Neway. It's been some time since I Chiong-K til the late night. I was so energetic for that night!

Snowflakes for 3 times in a week. Seriously addicted to its Soya Ice Series. Yummy! Thanks to my partner in crime. Hah! :D

Start playing Hell's Kitchen in class. Thanks to Kevin for introducing this game to us. Few of my classmates start playing it too. I must NOT addicted to it!

My family bought 5 items from COACH. My beloved sister surprised my with a COACH's mini wallet when I woke up early in the morning. She bought it for my belated 21st birthday gift. And I remembered how she surprised me last year during my 21st birthday party. By giving my a small cake, and then turned up with a big cake. She's always that sweet. :)

Watched Pirate of the Caribbean on the first day it shown on cinema. Brought Bobo for basic grooming. And tonight will be having Korean BBQ with friends! :)

A great week. <3

你有感恩吗?

2011-05-21T00:19:00.000+08:00

人生就是这样，不可能一帆风顺；
人类，不感恩上天的安排，却埋怨上天的不公平。
自己做的事情不一定得到别人的认可，
也许这时会成为心中的矛盾。

很多时候，无论是与家人，朋友或情侣；
人，往往认为别人对自己所付出的，是件理所当然的事。
相处久了，会期待别人对你的好；
会因为别人对你的过错而失望。
要记得，别人对你的好，不是应该的。
因为谁还会傻傻记得说过的那些话?

人与人的相处过程中，
要就是笑，要不就责。
遇到快乐就把嘴角挂上微笑；
遇到责就换个角度思考。

要善待他人，
要善待自己，
要善待周围的一切。

仔细想想，自己会因岁月的流失而逐渐成熟；
这个时候，要感谢那些曾经让自己成长的人，
感恩他们，让自己得到不一样的人生。

A Different Kind of Satisfaction

2011-05-15T23:42:00.000+08:00

It's Sunday but I got up early in the morning to SMK (L) Bukit Bintang for Badminton Competition. It was held by my uni. It's unbelievable that I actually joined the competition for Mixed Double. Thanks to Yuan for asking me to join and be his partner. Seriously, I was so excited yet stressed out because he is a real good player, but me..... :'( But whatever it is, we promised that, no matter what's the result, we must not blame each other but instead, we should enjoy it.

It was my first time joining Badminton matches. Aww.. Luck was with us as we eventually gone through the first match. We won. The second match was so stressful because the opponent is considered as the most well man player from my uni. Luck was with us again because we won the match, unexpectedly. We lost in the first round but we played so hard and we finally get a score of 26-24 on the second round. It's real hard to get that score.From big difference of score and finally, we bet them.

We reached semi-finals but we lose. Lose to juniors, ha! I guess its because my partner is feeling tired for playing 8 rounds at one shot? He have to play for mixed double and man double. Pity him. And he dunno why became so moody during the match! Spoilt betul, Bluek!

The Score

I'm not a good player, I don't play badminton that often. But this competition actually was a success, thanks to committee members and organizers. :) Not to forget, my partner for his patient, his guidance, and thanks to him for not blaming me when I made mistakes, not even a single expressions of disappointments or anger. We can play a good game, isn't? Hehe. We will never gone so far in the matches without you. Losing is nothing but we gained experience, joy and satisfaction. I never thought we can win in any matches as we said we are joining for fun. Being in semi-finals is really out of my expectation. Well done to us? Heh... :D

Today was a good day. Spent the day meaningfully, spent the time wisely with the person that I enjoyed with. SnowFlakes, Perfumes, Yogurts, gaming, shopped, dinner. :)

Nothing's important than Health.

2011-05-06T23:47:00.000+08:00

Had the simple medical checkup but the result wasn't that satisfactory. Was so excited before the test but when I got the result, the mood just gone.

Wasn't that bad la. Just that lacking of nutrients and pH imbalance could affect the functions of our organs. So..
It's time to change the diet. Not too late if i apply it now, right?

More Vege.

AND

No more chocs for me. :'(

Alright. That's the target for now. I just want to be healthy!
Let food be my medicine rather than the medicine be my food.

A Short Break ♥

2011-05-03T23:49:00.000+08:00

Phew, the third assessment is finally ended. It's good to have a holiday, even its only 3 days. Thanks to the classmates and lecturers for cancelling the class and replacing it on the other day. I had been so busy during the past few weeks and I seriously need to take a breath.

It's been some time since I went for a holiday. Finally, relaxing in Genting did make my day. Appreciation. :) Glad to have them to be with me, and you to by my side when I needed a company. It was a last minute booking but luckily that we managed to overcome every problems we faced. My shoes spoilt half way but we were lucky enough to get the room at a cheaper rate without queuing for 2 hours.

Sometimes, you don't need to spent a single money to get happiness.

I'mma love this.

It state: ♥ Story: Your company on me, everything is enough.

Thank you. :)

Strangers, again.

2011-04-24T12:51:00.000+08:00

" The most unfortunate fact about a relationship that doesn't work out, is the inevitable path both parties are on to become strangers. Many relationships follow a general path, through a set of different stages, one that brings two strangers together, takes them through a period of deep emotions and meaningful experiences, then returns them to where they began.

However, that stranger will never become the strangers the separated couple see in the streets. Experiences, memories, love, hatred, joy, sorrow, are all intertwined in a woven memory inside the mind of the fallen lover. These emotions cannot be thrown away or erased so easily, but shall remain and feed on the regretful mind. They will leave a mark, and that mark will define the person we will see tomorrow. "

时光回溯

2011-04-18T11:07:00.000+08:00

原来要找个了解，谅解你的人是一件不容易的事。

要相处多久才能足于让一个人了解你呢？

回想。。别回想了。。！

我想多了。

现在的我很矛盾。

我有点怀念以前的我。

Blind Leading The Blind Charity Walk 2011

2011-04-17T19:26:00.001+08:00

Blind Leading The Blind Charity Walk was organized by Lions Club of Petaling Jaya to create the awareness of eye care among public. It was held at the Civic Hall Car Park Petaling Jaya on 17th April 2011. It was a 3 km walk where one person will be blindfolded and another one will be leading the way. As usual, anything about the vision, my uni will be participating. And the students, are compulsory to attend!

This charity walk actually taught us to value our eye and we are responsible to take good care of it. I have no regret participating it because I don't think that I will have the chance to experience blindness again. When you are blindfolded, you will know how 'dark' is the world, you are just able to sense everything through hearing. This is when your ears play an important role to help you detect things happening around you. The partner leading you plays an important role too!

However, it was a good opportunity for us to experienced blindness and of course, teamwork as the blindfolded one have to trust the one leading. I had fun but in the same time, I am feeling so exhausted and tired. I almost fall asleep while driving back. :')

Note: Something is wrong with my stomach. Been feeling unwell for the past 5 days.

Jogoya Starhill

2011-04-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

Finally, the Jogoya plan was done successfully after being planned so long! Jogoya is having a promotion for Buy 1 Free 1 until 27th April. It was really worth as one person is about RM 50.

Being an organizer was not easy because you need to do all the job! Grr! However, a total 14 of us was sat together in a big room. We grabbed as much as we can, and eat all we can! Seriously, I was feeling so excited looking at the yummylicious foods. There were many sections, including the Japan's, Taiwan's, Teppanyaki, pastries and of course, my favorite desserts! So much until I hope I can finish them in that 2 hours!

Our room, No. 66.

Oysters, one of my favorite.

Desserts were superb!

King Crab.

14 of us.

Here are some dining suggestions:
1. If you have not consume any food for the past 5 hours, we suggest you to start with some warm dish to warm up your stomach.
2. After consume any dairy drink such as milk, try to avoid taking seafood.
3. Please do not mix up cold and hot dishes too frequently.
4. If you are allergic to seafood, we advise you when consume sashimi, oysters or prawns, please do not overeat.
5. For those who have tried oysters or raw slice fish, we suggest you to go bit by bit the amount eventually, as this will help your stomach to get use to the food and any unnecessary side effect that the foods may cause especially oyster.
6. Enjoy the food while its still piping hot, so that it can remain the freshness and the quality of the food.
7. For your health concerned, please enjoy your food in a right way to avoid unneeded effects to your body.

I think I have gained a lot of weight. It's time for me to keep fit. :'(

p/s: It was my first Jogoya outing. Thanks to everyone!
Next one, TENJI pls? :D

HairCut

2011-04-07T11:05:00.001+08:00

I miss my long hair!!!

Last year, I promised myself that I will not cut my hair short anymore. And guess what, I cut it short again! What to do? Sacrificed for my sis eh. She needs to cut a long hair and a short hair in order to graduate. But too bad Elaine and I both cut short, so she cant graduate yet. :'(

Well well well. When she cuts my hair off, I really feel like crying. But I hold my tears back. If not my sister will feel real guilty. Hey sister, you done a great job alright! A nice hair cut for Elaine and me. And I will keep my hair long again, bluek! You owe me one meal!

Update: A picture of me,

Signing off,

Sook Yee.

and finally...

2011-04-03T18:26:00.001+08:00

Finally, another hectic week is over. March was a tiring week because we had 2 internal assessment in a month. Bad schedule, bad uni. Whatever it is, it was kinds surprised that I eventually survived. As usual, I told myself, "study smart". What I have to do now is finish up the assignments, have some movies since it's been ages I been to cinema, and then grab enough rest!

God is always fair. When you are facing hard core moment, He will gives you some sweet ones. My friend is married! Attended his wedding dinner yesterday night. It was an awesome one especially when you got to meet friends of 8 years. Bunch of 8 years of friends making fun, screaming, yelling and getting drunk? : x Once again, congratulations Deric! :)

Hui San and Mickey. Mickey's having her 2nd baby.

Us.

ps: I need a sufficient rest. Lack of sleep really kills. I felt so terrible and get frustrated so easily! Off.

我很幸福

2011-03-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

我的雙手能觸碰這世界

我的雙腳能讓我往前追

我的眼睛看見了繽紛的色彩我能聽得到不同的音樂

我的朋友和我一起成長

我的家人苦樂都與我分享

我的老師指引我生命的方向

我有未來實現心中的夢想

我幸福很幸福當我知道還有許多人餐風露宿

我幸福很幸福有人生活清苦沒有父母躲在角落裡哭

我應該滿足~

Today, I'm dedicating this to let you guys know how lucky we are. I'm touched with people that are dealing with poverty. When they are starving, we are here asking "I'm hungry. What's for dinner?".
Don't complain your life. Appreciate.

我们要：知福，惜福，再造福！
恶要‘休’，福要‘修’。

给地球妈妈的信

2011-03-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

打开了面子书，看到了日本地震的消息。
8.9 级的地震算是严重吧？

今天的天气阴阴沉沉，一整天都下着丝雨。
老天爷啊，您是在为日本人民流泪吗？

亲爱的地球妈妈：
人类是做错了，您是否对人类的不珍惜而生气？
但人谁无过错？
您可以大发慈悲，别生气了，好吗？
您可以不要发脾气来引爆火山，不要随意动摇来启动地震，不要哭泣来导致水灾吗？

我不是日本人，我没去过日本。但我有个日本朋友。

您有看到我流泪了吗？看到我的心疼吗？
您听见了我的祈祷吗？
您可以保佑日本人渡过危机吗？

现在的日本，您看了，会心痛吗？

我不知道有没有世界末日一回事。但是死亡的确让生命变得更有意义。
还是那句: "珍惜，珍惜，再珍惜!"
‘健康的地球妈妈，您快点回来吧! ’

10th International Conference on Low Vision

2011-02-27T18:21:00.003+08:00

I've been 'working' for the past 6 days in KLCC for the 10th International Conference on Low Vision. Bravo to Malaysia and Malaysian Association of Blind with THONEH for winning the bid to host the conference in KLCC. Malaysia is the first Asian country to be given the honour to host this conference which held once in every 3 years. As THONEH is one of the organizer, we were sent to be volunteers. Frankly speaking, I was feeling kinda excited about it. Classes were cancelled for the whole week, and 50 of us were there for help. :D Bad thing is the bus leave at 7am, which means I have to wake up at 5.30am to get prepared! And when I reach home, its already late at night.

19/2

Place where we work!

Potential of being factory workers

But the first day ruined my excitement. We seems like working in the factory for packaging the bags. Even putting up the badge made me bleed 2 times. I'm careless, I know. We were given our job before we leave. My job? Sad. I wasn't in the same group with people I know. I'm under the Secretariat team with Rosessela and Prashanthi. Actually, I don't really know the seniors. :x On the first day itself I was chosen to be the photostat girl. Ms Yon - the team leader, start teaching me to use the photostat machine. The first day, just not so good.

20/2

Drawing - Failed.

The Mother, Ms Yon

See! Lots of mat salleh!

First friend I met, Ms Regi from Penang.

Us.

Things start to go smoothly on the second day. It was the Registration Day. I have lots of paper to be photostate. Ms Yon kept searching for me to photostat. Ling Ling here, Ling Ling there. Okay, now I named her as - The Mother! Someone was so free and he sticked this paper on the photostat machine. The girl drawn doesn't look like me, AT ALL! ;p The whole day I was busy helping them at exhibition hall to stick the posters. (I ran off from the Secretariat room!) The dinner that day was awesome, superb! Grab the dessert like nobody! And a lot of mat salleh eh! *Slurrp* Desperate gila, not only me okay.

21/2

Plenary Hall.

Opening Ceremony.

Exhibition Hall

Mariko from Japan

Blind Therapists

Third day, everyone started to be serious. Serious with their job as today is the opening ceremony of the conference. The plenary hall is huge! As I walked around the exhibition hall, there was a booth of blind therapists. They were doing foot massage for RM10 for 15mins. Looking at them being so optimistic and strong, I felt touch and my tears almost fall.

22/2

BINGO.

Table 55.

NIOs.

The following days obviously get better. As I was stuck in the Secretariat Room everyday, I get to know seniors better. Rosessela and Prashanthi bought breakfast for me, playing Bingo with seniors, laughing and teasing seniors. Although it was kinda boring to stay in the room, but we tried to find ways to enjoy. We had banquet dinner on the fourth day. The appetizer was great but the main course was just - so so. That night, we went back at 10.30pm.

23/2

Lunch.

Firman's camera.

From Italy.

Ian Bailey from USA.

Jan Lovie-Kitchin from Australia.

The most handsome guy - Dr Daryl, from UK.

The lunch served in the ballroom was delicious! The first thing I'm definitely gonna miss here is the FOOD. As the event gonna end soon, we 'grabbed' mat salleh and took photos with them.

24/2 Last day of Conference

Selling CDs and T-shirts.

Mariko, I'm gonna miss her so much.

Mother.

Finally, the event is ended. It was a tiring week as I only slept for 4-5 hours each day. But seriously, I missed the moments we spent together, worked together. I got no regrets joining. But wait! I think I gained weight! :/

Looking forward for the next conference! 2014 in Melbourne? :)

拜托啦

2011-02-18T00:03:00.001+08:00

拜托啦大小姐！
反醒吧！
地球不是绕着你转的！

想酱多干嘛？！

‘兔’gether

2011-02-03T09:50:00.000+08:00

‘兔’ you guys out there,

‘兔’gether we celebrate the prosperity of Chinese New Year.

Wishing everyone ‘兔’飞猛进，扬眉‘兔’气。。啦啦啦。

May this year 2011 a smooth one, a great one, a happy one!

Huat Huatt Huattt arhhhh! :D

Gong Hei Fatt Choii !

p/s: I want to gamble, I want to do visiting!

言论，自由？

2011-01-28T02:00:00.000+08:00

自由言论，没有错。

可是有些事情为什么要公开告诉别人？我接受不到。可能我不是这样的人，不习惯把事情告诉别人。我从来没分享心事的习惯，或许这是一个弱点。该说我独立还是我的心放不开呢？我不是要把所有的心事自己扛，我只想自己解决。毕竟这样会让我更成熟成长。还是我也该找个异性朋友来聊心事？

我不喜欢有些事被公开。该说的，我会说；不该说的，我放在心里就好。我不明白，为什么要跟别人讲？！为什么要弄成这样？是要让全世界都知道吗？要被大家看偏吗？为什么那种敢怒感言的作风我接受不到？没关系，你的权利，not under my control.

FB 的言论自由实在是。。我很讨厌，我真的很讨厌！

我没有责怪谁，我没有生气谁。错在于我，所以算了。就让我埋怨一下好吗？
明天一觉醒来就 ok 了。

晚安。

Forgive & Forget

2011-01-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

人生就像一场戏，因为有缘才相聚，

相扶到老不容易，是否更该去珍惜，

为了小事发脾气，回头想想又何必，

别人生气我不气，气出病来无人替，

我若气死谁如意？况且伤神又费力。

邻居亲朋不要比，儿孙琐事由它去。

吃苦享了在一起，神仙羡慕好伴侣。

《莫生气》你听过吗？我家就有一个挂在客厅里。从小就念到大，背得滚瓜烂熟。这几天，不愉快的事情总是发生在我身上。我感觉身心疲倦了。脾气变了，令身边的人受苦，真不好意思。我，就连想个地方都会觉得很困扰及烦恼，差点儿就哭了。这，不是我。我好像过于操心，什么都拿来烦？只要没伤害到任何人，那我就有让自己伤心的权利。

我找到了一个《奉劝世人不生气》的诗。觉得蛮不错的。

他人气我我不气，我的心中有主意。

　　君子量大同天地，好坏事物包藏里。

　　小人量小不容人，常常气人气自己。

　　世间万物般般有，岂能尽如我的意？

　　弥勒菩萨笑哈哈，大着肚皮装天地。

　　他人辱骂我，我当小儿戏。高骂人人了天，恶骂人人了地。

　　我若真该说，给我好教育。我若无那事，他还骂自己。

　　吃亏天赐福，让人懂道理。若不学忍让，气上又加气。

　　因气得了病，痛苦无人替。想到死亡时，啥事过得去。

　　他人来气我，我偏不生气。一声阿弥陀，万病该可治。

　　学佛忍让波罗蜜，少病得多福，增福延年无价宝。

不是很明白，可是讲到好像很可爱酱。

我要变得坚强点。要时时警惕自己，不要轻易放弃！小姐脾气要改一下。要活得精彩。证明我是有用的！那些话，我不听，也不会去理会。

感谢在我最低潮的时候，陪伴着我的人。感恩！

I forgive and forget, to GET WELL & MOVE ON.

天天好天

2011-01-18T12:15:00.000+08:00

<天天好天>，你看了吗?

一部本地制作电影。。值得支持!
这部戏，有感人的，也有好笑的。

看完后，让我感触及感动不已。眼泪也留了下来。
我感受到了亲情之间的爱。
林德荣忍下喝了那辣辣的凉茶，因为他知道妈妈的用心良苦。
小女孩Joey 一开始不喜欢阿公，后来却与阿公玩game，写中楷。然后与阿公同台演出。
Joey 坐在荡秋千边唱边哭，因为她想起阿公了。
Royce 骑着摩托哭了，因为他爸爸得了乳癌。他给他父亲补品和鞋子的那一刻是多么的感动。
林主任说：“能让一个老人家开心一天，当一天的儿子也不算什么”。
那个 kakak, 实在有够夸张。
剧里小孩子们在运动会时，多么的齐心。

很庆幸的，我两边的阿公阿嬷都还在。
可是最近家里发生了很多事，亲戚去世，阿公和舅舅病了。
我也希望可以天天看到阿公阿嬷。那，我可以看他们多几次呢?
我可以在10后面放很多很多个 +1 吗? 就一直这样加下去。。
可以吗?

其实，生命很脆弱，
所以，孝顺要趁早，感恩要及时；
以免终身遗憾！
无论晴天还是雨天，天天都是好天！

摩羯座

2011-01-07T01:07:00.000+08:00

摩羯座是一个由极端混合而成的矛盾体，从来不曾有哪一个星座曾像他们一样痛苦地在成为一个好人还是坏人的思虑中，那么频繁而且痛苦的挣扎，他们一方面热切的希望自己能化作和煦的春光复舒万物，一方面又会疯狂的期盼自己能变作三尺寒冰冻结天地。可对于这个冬季出生的人群来说，对温暖的追求又是那么执著，所以到了最后，他总是又跳跃回去，积极地培育自己的春光一样的明媚品质了，成为一个好人带给他们的快感似乎更容易让他们就觉得陶醉。相对于他们自身的感受而言，他们并不愿陷在任何负面的阴暗情绪里。但同时又觉得做个坏人也没什么不好。

一般来讲，孩童时期，他们是最乖巧惹人疼的乖宝宝，而年轻的魔羯总是容易显得孤僻不合群，年纪越大的魔羯在社会上越如鱼得水，老了之后，他们往往会成为难得的和蔼又宽容的代表（尽管这宽容和和蔼来的那么像扑面而来的皇权的体贴，让人面对时虽然觉得温暖却不敢靠近放肆）。虽然他们终身致力于中庸的调和，又向往任何明媚的气质，但这种根深蒂固的极端总是很容易失去控制，让他们在社会中莫名的感到落落寡欢。

魔羯的极端，是矛盾的状态，很爱很恨，总在两端不停跳跃，找不到中间平衡态，所以魔羯座对自己的情绪也会有困惑，于是他们就在这种激烈撞击的心理状态下表现出一如既往的漠然，不然他是没有办法思考的，“自己到底在想什么？自己到底站在哪一边？”就在这种冷漠的伪装中，魔羯正在反反复复整理自己的各种相互矛盾的情绪和想法，而这就成了世人眼中的深思熟虑吧。想必魔羯在有的时候会羡慕天蝎和天平：一个的爱恨有方向（非爱即恨），一个的爱恨是完全调和的（没有最最爱也没有最最恨）。你要让身边的魔羯去分析一个人的优缺点，如果他想说，那么你会发现这个人的无论优点还是缺点都统统无所遁形，你发现他可能分析到别人的一句话一个动作，也用上了自己的第六感。你会一边赞叹魔羯的惊人的分析别人能力，一边又暗暗出冷汗，觉得魔羯竟然这么分析别人？！真是有点老谋深算的感觉。如果他不想说，你就会发现他好像对任何人都好冷漠，对任何事都漠不关心，如果他心情亢奋，你也许又会看到另外两个形象：也许非常刻薄，也许非常赞许。

魔羯是一个十分敏感的星座，他能够通过一件小事看透一个人，也十分了解什么是好的，什么是适合社会的，同时，魔羯又是一个极其爱自我怀疑的星座，当别人流露出美好气质的时候，他会立刻丢弃自己关于别人缺点的分析，所以说起来，魔羯其实很容易上当受骗，也很容易受伤害。因为他们天生的敏感，倒也很容易察觉到自己被骗了，这时他们极端的性格再次发挥作用：当他们看到别人表现出好的一面时，对别人的信任是绝对的，不参杂的；而当他们发现，即使是一件微不足道的小事上的欺骗，他们就绝不会再信任了。　　　　　　

很少有人和别人交往是从绝对的信任开始，可是魔羯是。这听起来真不像是天天把人性分析得那么透彻的魔羯所为，但这却是千真万确的。魔羯总是很轻易的就把一个以前从未接触过的陌生人定义为好人，别人说什么他都会信以为真。而且他们一旦对别人建立良好的印象就很难消除。非常容易被感动，最有报恩的冲动：你要是毫无条件的帮他一回，他可能表面不动声色，却暗暗想把你一辈子都包揽照顾起来。他们总是把自己的责任看得太重，一旦帮了忙他就是拼了老命也要做得尽善尽美，不能容忍别人有一点不满意。所以尽管求他们办事很难，可一旦答应你就放一百二十个心吧！　　这仿佛是个从桃源来的圣人。可他并不是。他只不过习惯了自我伤害罢了！事事走极端的性格是他的致命伤，他们至少要活到50岁往上才学会“和别人的交往要从怀疑到信任，不要太追求绝对”这句话的一星半点，而且只是偶尔拿出来用用。

安全感

2011-01-05T01:59:00.001+08:00

一个男人和一个女人在一起，需要的是什么? 是安全感吗? 不止是女人需要安全感，男人同样需要。那，什么是安全感? 男人不抽，不赌，不泡就能给予安全感吗? 那女人不发侨，不乱放电就能给予安全感吗? 安全感不是一种心理的感觉吗? 它看不见，摸不着。它是那种在一起的情感生活中，有不害怕及稳定的感觉。是来自于对方表现一种让你放心，依靠，舒心的感觉。

女人总是讲究安全感。要产生安全感并不容易。要让对方相信自己。说得到就要做得到，做不到就不要承偌！应该愿意为对方改掉不好的习惯，不要再对其他异性太好。物质上的安全感也很重要。让对方知道生活费不用愁，别担心没有钱。

我是个缺乏安全感的女人。我睡觉时习惯抱东西，我念旧，我会莫名其妙的觉得孤独，我喜欢把心事放在最温柔的地方。这证明，我是个正常的女人。我工作比别人认真，但我的抱怨比别人少。我通常表面酷酷，其实只是不希望让别人看到脆弱一面。

如果闷是一个理由。如果不开心是一个理由。那，其实我接受不到。可以站在我的立场想一下吗? 你的个人风格，可能与我不合。我会加油的。

* 大小姐啊，现在是什么情况，麻烦快把醋喝完。你是太闲没事干?

我喜欢这句：其实成熟不是心变老，而是当眼泪在眼睛里打转时还保持微笑。

Happy Birthday to Me

2011-01-02T12:48:00.000+08:00

First post of 2011, I would like to say:

I'm 21 now!

Happy 21st to me.

Not to forget,

thanks to my family,

thanks to my fellow friends,

thanks for the wishes from 241 friends,

thanks for the pressie,

and thanks for the unforgettable 'sad' memory given.

Another special birthday.
A simple celebration, a gathering of friends.
Pictures will be updated soon.

So, its 2011 now.
HAPPY NEW YEAR People.
Wishing all of you great happiness, a joy that that never ends.

Once again, thanks to everyone of you. :)

2010-12-25T05:50:00.000+08:00

I am not supposed wake up this early.

This is stupid that I vomited early in the morning.

I am sick during the Christmas again.

Why must it fall on the Christmas!

I shall rest now!

Christmas

2010-12-24T10:11:00.000+08:00

I wish everybody a MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Christmas day is a time for love.

It is a time for showing our affection to our loved ones.

Hey, Santa Claus,

I want.. *thinking*

Okay, simple one will do.

I want to be healthy, wealthy and happy.

That's all.

Thank you.

Rocks the night babehh.

Have a blessed Christmas and a happy new year.

Today's Google is cute :

冬至快乐

2010-12-22T16:29:00.000+08:00

平凡的日子平常过。

幸好有节，平淡的日子才能激起丝丝的喜悦。

“ 冬至不仅是一门节气，更像是一门哲学。

它不仅涉及到人与自然的关系，还涉及到家人与人的关系。”

冬至，

是北半球全年中白天最短，黑夜最长的一天。

过了冬至，白天会一天天变长，黑夜会慢慢变短。。

就是喜欢与家人坐在一块，拙着汤圆。

想尽办法捏出独一无二的汤圆。

祝：冬至快乐。

It's Different

2010-12-22T16:06:00.000+08:00

Sem 3 has ended!
It's the 4th day of holiday and yet I am still don't get use to it.
Woke up at 7.30am everyday and then zzZ back.

December is an awesome month.
It's a holiday month.
It's a birthday month. xD

My lovely classmates celebrated my birthday on the last day of final exam.
I was like... "Oh my god!" when the lights turned off and I saw the cake...

The cake.. was made by Jun Yuan. Yes, I repeat, its made by him!

Not with this 'ki hiao' look = ="

I was so surprised and touched.
Till today I still can't express the feeling.
It's my first time celebrating birthday in class. This is so different.
What even weird is, I tears when I was reading the birthday card.
Thanks a lot. I really appreciate it.
The cake taste really nice. Chocolate flavor somemore! =)

Good Memories to be remembered.

* It's been a long time since I watched movie in cinema! =/

要学会满足和珍惜

2010-12-12T17:27:00.001+08:00

I bet everyone heard about Alviss Kong, the guy who committed suicide for his relationship.

On that day itself, before the news was shown in newspaper, I had already received the news. I thought it was just a joke or what. But..

He was a good looking guy i must say.

It was a very sad tragedy. He leave the world just like that.

Nothing much I can say about it as he already gone. Just wanted to tell everyone out there that, there are a lot of people concerned about you, so if you feel like it's the end of the world, find someone and talk.

I'm sure that there must be a way to solve it.

If you think you are the most unlucky one, see this.

Lets say, you jumped off.

At 10th Floor, you saw a couple are arguing.
看到10楼恩爱的夫妇正在互殴

At 9th Floor, the tough guy - Peter is crying.
看到9楼坚强的PETER正在偷偷的哭泣

8th Floor, the girl found out that her husband has scandal with her best friend.
8楼的丫妹发现未婚夫跟好朋友上床

7th Floor, DanDan is having her medicine.
7楼的丹丹在吃抗忧郁症药丸

6th Floor, the guy is still looking for a job.
6楼失业的阿信还是每天看报纸找工作

5th Floor, the teacher - Mr Wang who are respected by everyone is wearing his wife's bra.
5楼受人敬重的王老师正在偷穿老婆的内衣

4th Floor, Rose want to break up with her boyfriend again.
4楼的ROSE又和男友闹分手

3rd Floor, the lonely uncle is waiting for someone to pay him a visit.
3楼的丫伯每天都盼望有人来探访

2nd Floor, Lily is looking at the photo of her husband who has been disappeared.
2楼的LILY还在看她那结婚半年就失踪的老公照片

You thought you are the most unlucky person in the world.
在我跳下之前我以为我是世界上最倒霉的人

The truth is, everyone face their own difficulties too.
现在我才知道每个人都有不为人知的困境

After looking at them, you started to feel that, you have a good life.
我看完他们之后深深觉得其实自己过得还不错

Now, people who you saw just now, are now looking at you.

我想他们看了我以后,也会觉得其实自己过得还不错

Learn to appreciate. When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile.

在觉得自己不幸的同时, 别人比自己更不幸，要学会满足和珍惜。

11-12-2010

2010-12-11T15:35:00.000+08:00

“永远不知道真正的幸福是什么时候降临，
人们往往在流逝之中看见瞬间，
而那一刻时最真实的。”

Ijimae

2010-12-10T20:04:00.000+08:00

I am falling for this show.

Iljimae.

伤心

2010-12-09T23:15:00.001+08:00

今天的我，真的很伤心。
仿佛一刀一刀地涌入我心里。

为什么是你?
为你找了千万个理由，
很努力的说服自己：不可能是你。
我很相信你，我对你，是很单纯的真诚。

别人如何说你，我都不听。
我都不理。
因为我觉得你不是这样的人。

不是你的错，我没怪你；
我只怪我自己，
看得太简单，
把事情看得太单纯，
把世界看得太美好。

没关系，
你，依然是我的朋友。
我把心事写在沙滩上了，
风，会把它给吹走。

我眼睛很累了。
我的心，更累。

Off.

2010-12-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

Blog is temporarily CLOSED lor!

Hunting Season? Nope, Exam Season!

See you guys in two weeks time.

大小姐的部落格暂时打烊咯！

两个礼拜后见！

Author says,

感言

2010-12-05T01:51:00.000+08:00

雨一滴一滴地打再车镜上；
一个人驾驶 ;
听着收音机播的歌曲；
陈小春的没那种命，
歌词仿佛一句一句的打在我心上。
嘴角好像咸咸的。

路是我走的，我害怕什么?
心有多宽，世界就有多大。
我微笑地，宽容地，用心去面对；
为什么我思考的范围世界还是那么小 ?

有些人是不是永远都取代不了?
有些事是不是永远都遗忘不了?
有些痛是不是永远都隐藏不了?

我很想假装看不到，听不到，说不到。
但其实伪装比任何来得困难。
笑着哭，哭着笑；
好可悲。

“ 让微笑代替心痛，才不怕宿命的捉弄。” - 张学友 <人在雨中>

其实我不喜欢这样的我。

Screams!

2010-12-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

Argh!

Too many to be done, but too little time.

Just A Dream

2010-12-01T01:18:00.000+08:00

I've been falling to them recently.
Just so hawt!!
Great song with great lyrics sing with great vocal by great looking people.
Thanks to one who introduce them to me. Heh.

Just A Dream - Jason Chen + Joseph Vincent

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

I was at the top and I was like I’m at the basement.
Number one spot and now she found her a replacement.
I swear now I can't take it, knowing somebody's got my baby.
And now you ain't around, baby I can't think.
Shoulda put it down. Shoulda got that ring.
Cuz I can still feel it in the air.
See her pretty face run my fingers through her hair.

My lover, my life. My shorty, my wife.
She left me, I'm tied.
Cuz I knew that it just ain't right.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.
Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.
And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.
Oh I miss her when will I learn?

Didn't give her all my love, I guess now I got my payback.
Now I'm in the club thinkin all about my baby.Hey, she was so easy to love. But wait, I guess that love wasn't enough.

I'm goin through it every time that I'm alone.
And now i'm missin, wishin she'd pick up the phone.
But she made a decision that she wanted to move one.
Cuz I was wrong.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.
I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.
And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

And I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.
Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?
Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.
So I travel back, down that road.
Who she come back? No one knows.
I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream.

一点一滴的雨

2010-12-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

细细雨滴，滴答滴答。。
大雨倾泻，沙啦沙啦。。
这几天的雨可真多。
老天啊，你好久没露出笑脸了。

偶而，我蛮喜欢下雨的感觉。
曾经说过：下雨代表我的心情。
听着雨滴淋淋，心情变得平静很多。
有时，该给心情放个假。

看着灰色朦胧的天空，
一点一滴的雨就像体味着生活；
仿佛停着了生活的忙碌。
也许是因为疲倦，扒在桌子上，一下子进入了沉睡。
意识在梦和现实中游荡。

下雨给人悲伤的感觉。
我却爱上了它。
喜欢下雨的时节，拿起手中的伞，浪漫的散步；
喜欢下雨的时节，观赏人们狼狈地奔跑躲雨；
喜欢下雨的时节，让我忆想起童年在雨中尽情玩耍。

有多少人愿意在你的一生中停留?
有多少人愿意与你分担喜怒哀乐?
有多少人懂得用心去爱你?
就像下雨的时节，人总是奔跑着，从你生活中奔跑。
那怕只是一分一秒。

雨天留下的是阴阴淡淡的感觉。
希望明天会是个晴朗的一天；
灿烂的阳光就像强大的力量，支持我走完这段路程。
就像你是我的精神的支柱。

2010-11-26T07:25:00.000+08:00

I will never show the scene behind me.
Let all the acting play in role.
Let everything cover the sadness.
Let ....

Good morning.
Another day.

Sem 3

2010-11-25T23:42:00.002+08:00

Here comes the end of Sem 3.
This sem was kinda stress, not only with studies but as well as reports.
Reports always stack like a hill!
Basically, our life is full with assignments, exams, presentation, reports during this sem.
However, this sem passed so fast that without realizing, it's already end of November now.

There were arguments, there were laughters too.
Glad that everything had settled and my classmates are still in close with each other.
No doubts, they are the best classmates after all.

We were addicted to 'Plant vs Zombie' and Bejeweled recently.
These few days we wasted so much time in the class because there is no lecture, and we waited from morning til afternoon just for a class!
We were like those kids waiting for SPM examination.
So relax yet tension.

It's Kwen's Birthday today.
We had dinner in Swensen's.
One thing I feel regret is I don't get to eat the ice-cream because I was too full!
I will go after final!

Right now, concentrate for final and I can't wait to have FUN after final!
All the best, my fellow mates.

Author says, BE RIGHT BACK!

2010-11-23T00:14:00.002+08:00

Thanks for being so cruel to me.
I learn, and I will grow up.

2010-11-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

The feeling is complicated just like shit!
This is torturing.
Can I hide away? Far away...

I feel good.

2010-11-20T23:51:00.004+08:00

Today.
Is a good day.
I was so in mood of singing. And the problem is I am singing the same song over and over again.
Well, I have to say paiseh lar hor, to the person beside me who have to bear with my super duper 'high' pitch voice.
I was just.. haha!
Singing out loud could be fun sometimes. I don't care how bad I sang.
Lalala.

And I get to eat Choki-choki! After craving for so long!
Went to two shops of 7-eleven but out of stocks! And finally, I got it!
I was so so so happy.
Happiness is just that simple, you know?!
;)

Wee.~

Xie xie ni.

2010-11-20T00:50:00.001+08:00

Had a little heart talk with dad just now.
Never talk to him about my personal stuffs all this while, but this is my first time.
Of course, as a daddy, as a man, he gave me advices.

Thinking back, it was all my fault.
'If you don't say A, people won't say B.'
It's too late to undone everything, so look forward.
You can't turn back time, so make sure it's the right choice.

I dunno what to say anymore.

人是要用头脑来想东西的。
现在的我什么都不要想了。
累了。
明天是好的一天！

2010-11-19T23:10:00.004+08:00

暖暖

都可以随便的你说的我都愿意去
小火车摆动的旋律
都可以是真的你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你
）
细腻的喜欢毛毯般的厚重感
晒过太阳熟悉的安全感
分享热汤我们两支汤匙一个碗
左心房暖暖的好饱满

我想说其实你很好你自己却不知道
真心的对我好不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的你比自己更重要

都可以随便的你说的我都愿意去
回忆里满足的旋律
都可以是真的你说的我都会相信
因为我完全信任你

细腻的喜欢你手掌的厚实感
什么困难都觉得有希望
我哼着歌你自然的就接下一段
我知道暖暖就在胸膛

我想说其实你很好你自己却不知道
真心的对我好不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的你比自己更重要

我想说其实你很好你自己却不知道
从来都很低调自信心不高
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的你比自己更重要

你不知道真心的对我好不要求回报
爱一个人希望他过更好
打从心里暖暖的你比自己更重要
我也希望变更好

Update Update

2010-11-19T23:00:00.000+08:00

Too many things happened to my family recently.
After one lost, another of my uncle was admitted to the hospital.
Glad that he is alright now and has been discharged yesterday.
Visited him that day, alone.
Been so close with him when I was young. And out of sudden, I miss the moments of us play and fool with him in mum's shop.
10 years passed. He is becoming thinner, and I am in the other way round?
It was quite awkward at first because there were only both of us in the ward.
But we chatted and he is still the same, that funny.

After so many things happened, we appreciate each other even more.
Aunties all came to visit him, and my sibling is becoming more health-conscious.
Good thing, good thing.
But November isn't a good month for my family.

I believe, tomorrow will be a better day.
Up coming next is concentrating in my final exam, but not forgetting to enjoy too.
I need to study smart,
And be healthy!
And be happy!!

=)

Lost

2010-11-14T15:48:00.000+08:00

Received the shocking early in the morning that day.
None of us actually believed it when we first received the call.
This is unexpected. He was okay all this while but he leaves us so suddenly.

The feeling of losing the one you love, your family..
It's so pain and I finally felt the pain.
Relatives waited for me and we rushed to the funeral parlor once I finished my class that day.
Once we reached, tears fall. The moment we went beside the coffin, we cried even louder.
2 days of prayer. 2 days of sitting at the funeral parlor.
A peaceful place, but I really hate the feeling.

Today, the prayer ceremonies are over.
The wailing of the mourners reaches a crescendo.
All of us turned away during the sealing of the coffin.
When the coffin is nailed up, everyone cried.
I thought all these days they were so tough in accepting the fact, but they were not. Everyone cried so hardly today. That feeling, is like a knife stabbed into your heart.

At the cemetery, the coffin is burned.
We kneel down in front of the stove, looking at the fire, we shout for his name and we cried so terribly.
He leaves us at such a young age...

So many unusual things happened after the ceremony.
We received a miss call from the deceased.
Is it means that the deceased wants to tell us that he is fine, or is it someone accidentally pressed it?
Let it be a mist.

Alright, shall back to my mood.
I'm tired.
Life is short. So, appreciate.

2010-11-12T07:17:00.000+08:00

I felt so much pain, right in my heart. Thousand of words in my mind but I can't express it.
Dont... Sook Yee, don't think about it anymore.

Speechless 2

2010-11-09T19:13:00.000+08:00

I was so emotional just now. I got no idea why. It has been kept in my heart so long ago. You know what, I really felt so pain, deeply. After expressing, it make me feel much better. Talking about responsibility at this point is useless.

I am feeling calmer now. After a jog with Bobo.. Thinking hard.. Why are we reacting this way? No idea. Just hope, tomorrow will be a better day for us. It was a lesson for both of us. An unforgettable one.

I would like to say, thank you for all these days.
It's never been easy. Ups and Downs. Joys and Tears.
I hope you are doing well in the coming days.
I will keep updated.
It was a misunderstanding.

Sorry.

SPEECHLESS

2010-11-09T16:09:00.000+08:00

My heart felt so pain, so much pain. If you are thinking that it's all my fault, then blame me. Right now, I felt so helpless. I don't want to care about it anymore. I don't want to hear, see, sense or what so ever. I am so stupid for everything. I am so stupid! Why do I care so much? Why do I feel so hurt seeing all those? Why do I feeling such way? Look forward, that's all I can do.

I shouldn't think about it anymore. How long can I live? I should deserve a better life with more happiness. These few days were sucks. Thinking about what had happened made me feel so sick. All that were so sucks! I felt glad seeing you being so tough. I feel glad alright, I am happy for you. But please don't be this way..Tell me, who won't think about the past? If you hate it so much, then forget it.

You don't give a damn. Then I don't give a damn too! I am not angry but what made me feel so terrible now is, why when things happened, you push all the responsibility. Alright, blame me. My fault for bringing things into this stage. if you are tired, I am feeling tired too. I never thought things will become this way. But things already happened. Nothing else I can say - Speechless.

Everyone came and asked me. As if it's all my fault. Seriously, I felt so depressed. I will take it as its all my fault. I am so tired ady. This is really pain.

Sorry, ignore my terrible grammars or what-so-ever. This is just my personal thoughts, random one before class starts.Till then. Off.

2010-11-07T01:30:00.002+08:00

明明很想哭，却还在笑。

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓。

2010-11-06T16:52:00.000+08:00

Finally.. Finally, I'm done with everything. All the assignments, exams, seminar..
I can finally breath.
Up next will be clinics' reports.
And jogging!

Good. I love busy life.

STOP thinking! Do your work!

My Bobo really cute. ♥

2010-11-05T12:39:00.000+08:00

Eating wanten mee curry that I used to eat. The mee taste different this time. I hope it was the spiciness that....

I thought I am strong enough. But I am not.

我很想找個人, 對我說別怯慌..

2010-11-05T00:24:00.000+08:00

告诉自己，这是一个新的一课。

所以在未来的日子里，我要有新的目标！
1- 活得健康
2- 活得幸福快乐
3- 存钱
4 - 减肥
5- 快乐.. 还是快乐！

我越来越喜欢忙碌的日子了。
忙得透不过气，时间才会过得比较快。

以后的路，是一个人了。
以前的是曾经拥有。未来若有疤痕，也是我人生的印记。
乐观免不了沮丧，沮丧过后还是乐观。
我要加油。

2010-11-04T19:26:00.000+08:00

I thanks to people for concerned about me.

CL said: do you need a listener? just want you to know. lots of people cares of you. and your smile will makes people around you happy. so, faster get well... and back to your life.esokchai, sure is tough tough kids. opps, adult... xD

Till then.

2010-11-04T10:04:00.000+08:00

Right now, I am in the class. Listening to his lecture. 3 hours. It's not that I don't want to pay attention. It's just, I can't. My mind isn't with me now. I can't think, don't ask me to think.

I need a peaceful mind. It wasn't a good day day for me. But seeing my fellow classmates going back to their hometown for holiday makes me feel happy for them. Seeing them smiling so happily, I know they are feeling excited for it. I should feel glad that I actually staying with my family although it was kinda tiring of travelling everyday. Sometimes, you have to sacrificed to gain something.

There is always say easier than done. Today, things seems shadowed. Driving alone on the road, listening to songs that sound reflecting my feeling, which make me feel even worse.Feeling pain in the heart but you have to tell yourself from time to time to be tough. Feeling sad but you have to tell yourself from time to time not to cry. Feeling alone but you have to tell yourself from time to time that you are not alone.

Too many things to express..
I am sorry. But I'm feeling thankful at the same time.
Maybe 'time' is the only medicine I need.

Till then.

1st Nov 2010

2010-11-01T01:20:00.001+08:00

So fast, so fast.. It's November already!
4 assignments to be complete in this week.
Exhausted, really exhausted.

Right now, I am so happy because Public Relations's assignment is completed!
It included our hard works, ideas, hand made, designs. ha!
Thanks a lot, team mate! Heh.
Sorry if sometimes I rushed you, if I said anything that hurts you. You know la, the nature of girl..

See, nothing is impossible.
Look at the logo we designed!
From the beginning we were complaining that we shouldn't be in the same team.
Argued for different ideas. Condemning about the works.
Finally, it's done!

All the best doing the next assignment.
Till then, it is just a short post, telling you guys how great I feel.

As a lesson, don't do last minute work!
=)

November, I hope it will be a good month.

Your 20's

2010-10-30T23:53:00.016+08:00

Another year's gone.
There goes the NIO-Kakis went for sing K again.
Once in a year. On the same date.
Check out the last year's post. Serdang Boy's Birthday

It's the Serdang Boy's birthday.
The whole class gave him a big surprise.

He thought we were only celebrating his birthday at Wong Kok.
He never knows the fun was after that in the Neway.
Trying to fool around. Trying to act. Trying to delay the time.
It's never been easy okay. Hah.
Thanks to everyone.

Blowing off the candle.

You are now stepping into 20's.

Happy Birthday.

Hope you enjoyed the surprise.

Frisbee.

2010-10-27T00:06:00.002+08:00

Frisbeeee.

Had Frisbee session with my Uni-Kakis.
It was a sunny windy day.
10 of us, standing at the middle of the field, playing Frisbee. Not that easy.
But some of them just have the potential.

It was my first time playing this. I believe, it was their first time too.
Never knew Frisbee could be that fun.
You need skills, confident, technique to pass the Frisbee.

5 people per team.
Passing, jumping, screaming, laughing, teasing, yelling, running ...
Got sweat after playing for awhile. Running is tiring I have to say.
It's even tiring than jogging. =X

Opponent team have a great short distance passing.
Standing at aside, looking at them, everything was just so nice and simple.
I really enjoyed it.
Thanks to Ben for introducing this game to us.

Us. Yvonne and I.

Putting that aside..
That talk.. Erm, I shall take it positively.
At least, I enjoy listening to the jokes and ideas.
At least, I feel the energy and power of youngsters.
At least, I am not alone.
Can I take it that way?
Everyone need Vitamin M.
I can't stop laughing when they suggested : one of the way to get $ is by marry to an old rich man who are dying soon. Wee.
I want to be a millionaire and retire before 30 years old! Is that possible? ...

Stop dreaming!
What I need is time to study la! =(
I am tired. I need some rest. Good Night.

Ass-ignments

2010-10-24T22:58:00.000+08:00

It's raining outside. I love rainy night. It make me feel like lying on the bed and go asleep. The weather been changing dramatically recently. Everyone is falling sick. Bad weather!

This month's ECs isn't that bad. Among all the 8 subjects, there is only one writing exam. Others will be given as assignments. Tell me, should I be happy about it? The stacks of assignments are killing me. I can't breath! It's flooding...

I've been facing the lappy since 8.30am. How many hours? You count! 1, 3, 5 .. 14 hours! And I will be continuing facing it after blogging. Right now, I need a rest. My backbone is feeling pain, my head is feeling pain, my eyes is feeling tired.

Okay. Till then. I am having a busy life.
Shall off to work.
=(

2010-10-24T08:34:00.000+08:00

It was saved as draft..

Friday night, 22/10, went for dinner with uni mates after class. As usual, Piccadily. The day was still early. We had our dinner at 6 something. Listening to the music, watching at the television, looking at them..

I am sorry that sometimes I really couldn't control my emotions. When the music plays, when the memory strikes, there comes the emotion. I know you guys tried so hard not to make me recall of any unhappy moments, I really get it. And I really appreciate it. But I just, failed to make myself better.

Guinness Stout, I had that after our meal. I had a small cup of it. It's my very first time drinking. Obviously, alcohol doesn't suit me. I can't drink. Frankly speaking, it does not taste nice. I don't enjoy drinking, but I enjoyed the feeling. I always wondered, what's so good about drinking. I thought drinking could make yourself feel much better and dream like what you wanna to. It doesn't work on me. How much I hope to be drunk so that I can't remember anything. How much I hope my brain stop thinking.

I shouldn't be like this way. 'Alfanso' gave me some advice which is kinda right. No worries, I'm not alcoholic! That night, my field of mind is wider. I appreciate each and every one of them for accompany me, cheers me up, care me and so on.

I hate complicated life.

2010-10-21T21:54:00.000+08:00

How are you? This question been popping out from my mind. It's the first time, without any greetings from you for the whole day. Yes, I am not used to it. Looking at my hand phone, no message, no miss call. Nothing. I got no courage. The message is there, but i got no courage to press the send button.

It's another day. You seems alright over there?
"It's glad to see your happy face in that video. It feels really good too knowing that you have great friends around you. Being too busy is an avoid, but I'm okay after seeing the video. Farewell, I shall be gone from your life. (I did not approve your friend request & if these were sent through sms, you will say you are too busy to reply. So read this here)"

I'm praying hard. So that I could go through this. Staying at home after class make me feel even worse. I am alone at home, even bobo goes emo with me. I failed. Even making myself so busy is useless. Time please move faster.

2010-10-20T22:46:00.000+08:00

I wasn't in mood for anything. I'm praying hard so that I will forget everything once I wake up. Greeting them with a fake smile on my face. Chatting with them in a way I'm forced to talk. Driving without direction to uni, aimlessly. This is so NOT me.

I blame myself for all these. I shouldn't have been acting strong. I shouldn't have changed. I shouldn't been act like I doesn't care. I shouldn't think that the whole relationship is stable without me doing anything. With all my effort trying to think positively, still, I failed. I am such a failure. I hate myself, I curse myself!

Thinking again and again. I have to back to reality. I hope I could have focus on something better, trying to make myself as busy as I could. Please, make my schedule fully book. I hope people come to disturb me all the time so that my mind has no time to think about it, so that the time could flies faster. Don't leave me alone. I'm afraid. My tears can't stop falling. I fall, i fall seriously. I can't make myself smile, I can't.

I need to be strong. I must be strong.

2010-10-20T09:29:00.000+08:00

If the heart can tears.
If the smile will die.

Leave me alone.
I need some time.
I need a friend by my side now.

2010-10-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

Looking back at this picture..

What does it remind to you?

ARGH!

2010-10-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

It's sunny outside. The weather is terrible.
The sun is too sexy, it's too HOT.
That's why! I'm sick.

Cough, flu, headache, fever all came to me.
I hate to be sick.
It makes me feel so weak and uneasy.
It stops me from eating yummy foods.
It causes me talk like a duck. Or chicken?
It makes me feel so tired!

Right now, I'm in the MacDonalds.
I'm alone. And this is my first time feeling so lonely.
Grr.
I need to online and my house couldn't access to the internet.
Wanna steal neighbour's line also tak ade.

Sometimes, I enjoy being alone.

But sometimes, I'm not!

Look at my stupid face. = =

I'm sitting here without any meals or drinks on my table.

Should I get one? Argh.

Whatever!

Off..

Sambal Belacan Story

2010-10-10T18:49:00.002+08:00

The Sambal Belacan Story

I personally think this is the best story ever for celebrating 1 Malaysia Day.
We're all different, but still same same.

Moving away all those negative ones,
Malaysia, still I love you!

Sambal Belacan, slurp!

10 10 10

2010-10-09T23:59:00.027+08:00

有人比我早了一步，写了 101010 的 post。
101010 十全十美?
刚好又是星期日，应该算是好日子吧?
不要紧，反正不关我的事~

不知道什么时候开始...
比以前更注重健康
发现自己变粗鲁了
发现自己变迟钝了
发现自己什么都拿来烦

有时自己会一个人傻笑

有时自己会一个人悲伤
喜欢拿相机左拍拍，右拍拍
喜欢上了运动，虽然还是输给了懒惰
不过，这些事都算是好事！

最近身边的人都发生了些事
人与人的误解，我不喜欢
但这些都是我们必须走的一段路
不经一事，不长一知
它，扩大了我的思考范围
你，分享了我的喜怒哀乐

对任何事情，都应该往不同的角度去想
站在最高峰，一眼看下去
把所有都给看清
我不应该偏向任何一方
我好像变得会想了。

对！我应该多用用我的脑
应该好好的分析每一件事情
不用脑会变笨！

我感恩，
感恩对我好的人
感恩关心我的人
感恩爱我的人
感恩疼我的人
感恩给我快乐的人
感恩让我流泪的人

其实快乐是很简单的
今天，1零吉给了我快乐
谢谢你~

Sum it all.

2010-10-08T23:17:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time since I last updated my blog.
Been so busy with exams and assignments for the past few weeks. Having exams and assignments at the same time is killing.
We were so exhausted and pimples can't stop popping out.
Class starts at 8.30am and ends at 5.30pm almost everyday.
Highway is jam, classes are peak, lots of works especially reports.

This is insane. This is ridiculous.
However, we went through it.
I'm lucky. I'm lucky. I'm lucky.
At least, this week is a bit relaxing.

Alright. Let pictures do the talking.

Big sis came back for 2 days. Of course, we miss her. But I felt bad for not spending much time with her.

My little naughty cousins.

One word she said that made me feel touch: 我不会哭，我只会笑。
Perhaps I should hold this attitude in life.
My this little cousin, she really rarely cry.

Murni-ed with my N.I.O kakis once after the exam. Eating and chatting with them was fun. The feeling after exam was so so so great!

Went to watched mum and sis's performance.

And then Wong Kok-ed with N.I.O kakis after class.

Time flies. It's October.
I hope this month will be a good one.

Till then~

What a day

2010-09-21T23:58:00.000+08:00

It was my unlucky day.
I wore another pair of heel today, wore the new pants, used the old bottle.
I thought it gonna be a good day, I really felt that way.

Who knows.. things weren't that smooth.
My tyre.. punctured!
On the other hand, Tommy's tyre was punctured too.
But I'm lucky enough to have gentleman in my class.
They actually came for help. 2 cars parked nearby and we changed the tyre at the same time.
Few of the Malay guys came to lend a hand too.

Sadly to sad, they couldn't take out the nat of my tyre.
The bolt was corrode. So we have to called for foreman.
Waited for the foreman for 30mins. But they also couldn't help me!
What to do? Have to call for tow.
They were condemning about my car when I was talking in the phone.
I heard that ok, Kwen & JY!

Seriously thanks to all of them.
Jun Yuan la, Eugene la, Kwen la, Ben la, Tommy la..
I ruined their time for gym.
Especially JY for waited so long, and he tried so hard to take out the nat.
I feel myself being so troublesome (*not acting kesian here,ok?*)
Last but not least, the tow man. He is nice. =)

THANKS A LOT..

After all, I'm still smiling here. It was a good lesson for me.
But I'm feeling so tired.
I will be more aware next time!

* She says, she will leave.
Good night.

Sook Yee signing out.

2010-09-20T21:33:00.002+08:00

wenn die von mir verschwinden könnten Sie sich besser fühlen, bin ich bereit, zu gehen.Ich werde mich weit weg von Ihnen zu verbergen.Ich halte meine Tränen und Lächeln für Sie.Ich werde bereit, Ihnen all mein Glück.Ich will einfach nur ein Lächeln auf Ihr Gesicht jeden Tag, das reicht für mich zu sehen.

窗外的天氣

2010-09-19T00:57:00.000+08:00

窗外的天氣
就像是你多變的表情
下雨了雨陪我哭泣
看不清我也不想看清

離開你我安靜的抽離
不忍揭曉的劇情
我的淚流在心裡
學會放棄

聽雨的聲音一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸像雨滴滲入我的愛裡
真希望雨能下不停
讓想念繼續讓愛變透明

原来雨需要雷的陪伴雷因为雨而出现
可是雷就是那么的难以抓摸
雨与雷就这样越来越远
雨越下越大雷越打越猛

就这样就这样
原来，雨有一天会停下..

这样的“她”

2010-09-16T14:38:00.000+08:00

她其实有点懒，喜欢赖床。她其实不太乖，喜欢捣蛋。

她在陌生人面前会很安静，很冷漠，在熟人面前却很放肆，很霸道，并喜欢没形象的哈哈大笑。不要认为她很粗鲁，她只是很单纯的认为，大家打打闹闹，骂骂笑笑，表示更亲切，更不分你我。

她独立，也好强，她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不愿意向别人提起。她也会偶尔的忧郁，朋友问她怎么了，她也只会说没事。

其实她只是感觉累了，她只是需要一个拥抱。

其实骨子里，渴望有一个避风港湾，让她去依靠。但她不会承认。

她必须确定那个人是否可以承受得了这一切的，承受她的撒娇、她的无理取闹，她的倔强，她的悲观，她所有的性格缺陷且永远不离不弃。

只有这样，她才放心，可以放心去继续做自己，不会害怕有一天将要面对失去。

如果没有，那么她只好继续寂寞和孤独。

她对爱情没有安全感，也不会给别人安全感。

她爱不起，更怕伤害。

她一定要对方先流露出对她有好感，她才散发她的热情。她爱的永远是对她最好的那个，那个好她心里是有一个标准的，你的积分超过了那条线，她会爱上你，但大多数人没超过线之前就离开了，或者超过了之后没等她看到就离开了。

她恋爱的时候，喜欢大事听男孩子的而在小事上调皮，耍赖。

不要认为她太小气，蛮不讲理，其实在她调皮的习惯里已经为你收敛不少！

当你紧张他的异性朋友,她会一面跟你说，他只是我的谁谁谁，却一面偷偷在意你的感受。

她会希望现在的他是怎样怎样的，有各种各样的挑剔苛求的条件.她只不过是想要一个用努力来证明爱她的人，她不求结果，只希望你有那份心。

对她们而言,唯一具备杀伤力的只有感情，感情如果受到挫折，会毁了她，要么成就了她。从此更加漠然，专注于事业。

她分手后完全不会像其他坐在人面前要死要活，她嬉笑怒闹,变得更加开朗.在听到朋友说有关他的话题时，从不刻意回避，她适当参与，淡然微笑，她的表现总会遭人怀疑这段感情的深浅,而人群中只有那些知道背后情节的人才看见她背后的眼泪和努力。

她不允许男孩子的背叛，如果男孩子真的办了对不起她的事，她一定会狠心的离开你。

不要怪她太绝情，她其实很爱你，但是卑微的爱情她不要，她果断的转身只是不想让你看见她滑落的泪水！

她失恋的时候会在别人面前装的很好，大声的笑，放声的闹。当姐妹心疼的说：“你没事吧？”她会放下她所有的骄傲，趴到姐妹怀里哭。哭完了，苦笑一声：没想到我还会为一个男的哭。

她从来不会在情人面前大声哭泣，除非她真的崩溃了。即使在你爱着她的时候，她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤。如果你看到她的眼泪，请相信这绝不是她在博取同情，这是她这样一颗内心骄傲的女子不得己的场景。她想对你负责，对她负责，对自己的过去和未来负责，但请你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言.她很难相信. 即使她很难相信，但她还是会选择等待。若她喜欢上你，请你不要在她的世界里消失。她没有更多的要求，不会打扰你的生活。她只是想静静的看着你，当你的观众，仅此而已。

她就是这样，强势,霸道,任性。。。

不会讨人欢心，死要面子，她爱朋友多过你。

她善变，最耐不住寂寞却又喜欢假惺惺的让自己一个人呆着。

有时候她又充满阳光的气息，爱笑爱说话，活蹦乱跳，可爱迷人。。

她很自私，只愿意与人同甘，不愿意让别人跟她共苦。。。

她的家庭不一定很是富裕，但她都是习惯了养尊处优。

她喜欢热闹，总会成为聚会的焦点，前提是她想。

她也享受孤独，会静坐在一个人的房间听着很伤感的音乐。

她也会一整天呆在房间里心情压抑低落,但第二天一早起来，又会轻轻松松的打理一切，慌慌忙忙的拽着大衣拎着包往外冲。

她习惯在人前表现的很坚强，一付大女子主义的模样。

她会想,遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人,她就一定就会很安静，心甘情愿的安静下来，不烦,不闹，按时吃饭按时睡觉,按时做一切能安心和他一起做的事情.

她从不轻言爱，她的爱很沉默，那并非是因为她缺少那份勇气，在她的心里有一道栅栏，那就是自尊。

她会在真正爱她的人面前卸掉所有的盔甲和伪装，做个幸福的小女人，她不要求你要做什么，不会无理取闹要你陪着她，她有自己的生活，她给你空间因为她也需要空间.

她在你面前永远性感调皮，偶尔撒撒娇，跟你玩陌生人的游戏，在你的朋友面前从来大方得体，微笑的依偎在你身边。

她不让你给她买这买那，但是心里却会为你私自买给她的礼物而暗自开心，因为女人觉得那是你的宠爱。

她在意的是你的心，你若真心，她必然实意。最起码你得表现的真心,能让她感觉得到.

终有一天,她的敏感在你的呵护下慢慢消失不见，她的倔强被你的保护软化，她的伪装在你面前被轻易识穿。。。

得到她,别骄傲,

只有懂她的人，才会得到她的好。

她有时是有些迟钝的，在感情方面，但有时很敏感,因为她在乎。。。

这一种女孩子就以这样的方式生活着，

她有她的梦想，

她的希望。

一个如花儿般的女孩子，

她时而快乐，

时而忧伤；

时而郁闷，

时而疯狂；

时而邪恶，

时而善良；

时而脆弱，

时而坚强！

你可以说她傻，

也可以骂她笨，

也可以说她冷，

但是她们还是生活在自己的世界里，

希望做一个幸福、善良的孩子.

The Turning Point

2010-09-16T01:02:00.003+08:00

Look at a life from a different angle.
Sometimes we all need to look at things differently, in order to understand life and what is going around you.
I change it when I don't like something,
If I can't change it, I change the way I think about it.
Things changed when I change the way I look at things.

I had few nightmares last week.
It's been disturbing my mind and the situation just couldn't run off from my memory.
Dream of a dream. It happened.
Human.. is changing every seconds, very fast.. depending on the situation.
Its good for the great adaptation, but I dislike it ;
It's just sound capriciousness to me.

This is weird.
Something happened few seconds ago, I dreamt of it before.
Everything seems so familiar.
The words, the dialog, the people, the feeling.
It's like a knife stabbing into my heart. That pain.

What the hell am I thinking?
This feeling is ridiculous.
I'm holding back what I'm feeling for.

Guess what, I got exophoria.
Guess what, all of us managed to wear formals to class.
See, things happened unexpectedly.
Turning it to another point, things may become better.
Taking it Positively & Optimistically..
I don't want to think too much, let me escape, please.
Make my life just like the cartoon's fancy world than bringing me to face the reality.

Good night.
I don't want to sleep.